someday somehow

Faithfully

2012-01-23T13:18:00.000+08:00

Recently I saw the movie "A Dog's Story"

Starring Richard Gere, based on a true story about a dog that waited for his Master at the train station everyday for the next 9 years after the Owner passed away.... such a moving story.

To know more about this, read Wikipedia.org-Hachiko

This is the real dog....

They actually built a statue of the dog at Shibuya Station

In 1924, Hidesaburō Ueno, a professor in the agriculture department at theUniversity of Tokyo took in Hachikō as a pet. During his owner’s life Hachikō saw him out from the front door and greeted him at the end of the day at the nearby Shibuya Station. The pair continued their daily routine until May 1925, when Professor Ueno did not return on the usual train one evening. The professor had suffered from a cerebral hemorrhage at the university that day. He died and never returned to the train station where his friend was waiting. Hachikō was loyal and every day for the next nine years he waited sitting there amongst the town’s folk.

As a Muslim, we're not supposed to have dogs for pet [I could be wrong here] , so i guess I'll never experience this bond.... but then again, even if I were allowed to have a dog, I don't think my dog would wait for me ...... even when I am alive!

Well, 2 ways to look at it, either the dog is SO faithful.... or just plain dumb! Go FIGURE!

I don't know if dogs, or animals for that matter, have emotions or can think. My conclusion is that the Dog thought
Someday
Somehow
the Master is still alive [coz you can only be faithful to someone who is still alive] would somehow come through the Station and greet him

Anyways, I can't say I can ever be that faithful ..... or that DUMB!

And what' up with when finishing a letter, we write 'Yours Faithfully'?

being a beach bum

2011-12-28T13:49:00.020+08:00

I have always wanted to be a beach bum, well maybe not always always... Anyways, i am now living that dream somewhat because I am now in Langkawi. I have been here since last Friday, so 6 days since. I have a friend who had decided to open a 'resort' here, eventhough she has been a city girl all her life + definitely not her line of work..... This girl's got guts, that's for sure!

So supposedly the Place [La Pari-pari] is scheduled to open by January 2012. Well, that's not going to happen! It looks like maybe another 3 months. Anyways, I decided to come + help if i can in any way i could, while at the same time being a 'beach-bum'.

Some pictures of La Pari-pari, the place is not by the beach, but it's got sand + extremely breezy, so it does somehow feels like you're sitting by the beach

The Chalets [12 of them] looked nice, clean cut design, all white exterior + interior. The bathroom is huge too + you get King-size bed.

The first few days felt like 'Waa... this is awesome being a bum, and I think I can live this way, no cares in the world, just me + the sun + the breeze'

Having campfire + BBQ with friends by our 'beach'

Strolling at night for some desserts + drinks

Scribbling on the ceiling of Cactus [a cafe]

Watching boats by the pier at Perdana Quay

Sidetracking- these are fisherman's boat, mainly to catch squids, they have loads of light bulbs on top, coz squids are attracted to lights

Eating at some 'exotic' floating restaurant [Hole in the Wall] in the wilderness

Me... looking extremely happy on the boat

Looking like a fool in a swimsuit that decided to expand from waist down!

Anyways, it is awesome, doing nothing, just hanging out with friends.......
Nevertheless, there comes a realization that I cannot do this ALL the time, it just doesn't feel right,
maybe taking a break is ok, but not being a full-time Beach Bum...... it's just not natural for me

So, i am happy for this experience to be somewhat reliving my dreams

Someday
Somehow
I hope everyone get to live their dreams
Coz sometimes dreams are better left as dreams.....

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!!

the paradox

2011-12-07T12:39:00.006+08:00

when you quarrel or argue with someone, it eats a little bit of you inside,
but if you keep it to yourself, it builds up inside like a toxic, and still eats you up inside.

when you try to make things better,
yet you somehow manage to change it to worse.

when you listen to TEDTalk on Gratitude, and feeling that there is so much to be thankful about,
then you end up being ungrateful

when you pray and plea to God to make you a better person + 'bersyukur'
and you think God will answer your prayers right away + make you that stronger person,
then you don't + become weaker in the process

when you think it is time to walk away because that is the best thing to do,
and yet you stay on because you have hope + faith [or just delusional.. as a friend would say]

when you hurt someone else, then you are now the receiving end,
so supposedly you should know how to deal with it,
and yet you are clueless

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there- Steve Jobs

The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of unhappiness. - Eric Hoffer:

you would think at this age, the mind is somewhat settled..... but not!

If you're thinking 'Is there something bothering me now?'
no worries..... I'm just fine, thank you for asking

someday
somehow
maybe, just maybe i would find the answers

awesome!

2011-11-22T10:46:00.003+08:00

SEA Games 2011 Final: Malaysia Vs Indonesia
I usually don't watch SEA Games or Malaysian Football coz [sounding unpatriotic] it's usually BORING. However, last night I actually watched the whole Final game alone [almost never]and the game lasted 130 minutes or so coz it went into overtime after an equal 1-1 score

The Penalty Kick at the end was SO dramatic, even fiction could not envisioned this. The Captain [don't know his name] was the last shooter + when he kicked the ball, the Indonesian Goalie actually saved it!

However, the Ball had it's own mind, went strolling out from his hands and into the Goal! How bizarre is that!!

Oh ya... we got GOLD medal

Premier League 2011: Manchester United vs Manchester City
Speaking about 'Soccer' + 'Feel Good', I enjoyed watching Manchester City trashed Manchester United at OLd Trafford!
"Manchester City inflict upon Manchester United their heaviest home defeat since 1955 as they demolish Sir Alex Ferguson’s men 6-1 to open a five point lead."

Roberto Marcini, the Coach for Man City

3As of Awesomeness
I stumbled into this TEDTalk through BFM, and this chap Neil Pasricha, through his Talk '3As of Awesomeness' has inspired me to give birth to a new blog, mainly concentrating about the good moments in my life.

Someday

Somehow

we all get bumps along the way

so let's try to vision it like a Flute!

i am muslim..... too

2011-10-11T15:35:00.001+08:00

i am prompted to write this topic [eventhough i am no expert] because i am muslim......too.

nowadays i feel the perception of islam is somewhat screwed. i feel that nowadays we are known as the terrorist, a religion to be feared upon, not to be embraced, which is a bit ironic coz we are encouraged to greet other muslim with

'assalamualaikum' [peace be upon you]

and yet we are not seen as peaceful.....

examples to cite from:

that indonesian song 'mungkin hanya tuhan dapat ....' [translated as 'maybe only god can understand]. well, a lot of people, the so-called-defender-of-islam scdi], were arguing that how can we doubt coz god would definitely know... so recently when i heard this song again, the lyrics were sang 'memang hanya tuhan'. this is a pretty old song, so i supposed the scdi got their way!!

as for me, my interpretation of this song was- the person is really sad + hoping that another person
[most probably the person that she is sad about feels it too]other than god would know what she is
going through at that moment of sadness, in other words god definitely knows what she is feeling.

holier than thou syndrome : one blogger assuming a prominent leader's wife not islamic coz the blogger assumes the lady does not pray 5x daily, a few bloggers from each side of the political party labeling each other not islamic, because of different views of islam, etc.

who are we to judge another human being just from the physical outlook, what matters is in the heart

+ only god knows. isn't accusing someone else without proof 'fitnah' + 'umpat'? aren't these big sins

too?

the issue of 'murtad' [apostate] : i don't quite understand why are we forcing people to stay in this religion if they don't want to, like the case of lina joy [i don't quite know the details except she wants to convert from muslim to another]. while i do believe that we should advise + counsel, however after that, it should be that person's decision... it is not for us to put force + impose terror.

sura al-baqarah 2:256 [extracted from wikipedia Al-Baqara_256]

There is no compulsion in religion. Verily, the Right Path has become distinct from the wrong path.

Whoever disbelieves in Tâghût and believes in God (ar. Allah), then he has grasped the most trustworthy

handhold that will never break. And God is All-Hearer, All-Knower.

"this verse is acknowledged to belong to the period of Quranic revelation corresponding to the political and military ascendance of the young Muslim community. ‘There is no compulsion in religion’ was not a command to Muslims to remain steadfast in the face of the desire of their oppressors to force them to renounce their faith, but was a reminder to Muslims themselves, once they had attained power, that they could not force another's heart to believe. There is no compulsion in religion addresses those in a position of strength, not weakness. The earliest commentaries on the Qur'an (such as that of Al-Tabari) make it clear that some Muslims of Medina wanted to force their children to convert from Judaism or Christianity to Islam, and this verse was precisely an answer to them not to try to force their children to convert to Islam."

extracted from wikipedia Apostasy_in_Islam

The Qur'an states that God (in Arabic, Allah) despises apostasy, with severe punishment to be imposed in the hereafter, but not mentioning explicitly any earthly penalty for apostates.

poco-poco/ yoga/ valentine's day : all these are 'haram', supposedly because of the origins of these activities, hence would deviate our beliefs.... what the ????!!!!####%%

is our 'aqidah' that easily bent + fragile??? doesn't it go back to your nawaitu... in everything you do?

why must we be protected so much, are we that weak? why is the thinking of the so-called islamic

scholars so shallow? if they block a lot of things from us, how are we supposed to learn, can't we

think + question? isn;t that the real teachings of islam... the quest for knowledge???

as i was surfing, i read this.... supposed there are a lot out there who are in the same wavelength...
thank god!

extracted from unscientific malaysia.com Blind Faith

By denying the use of reason and logic, religion curbs its own advances.

And why would they want you to believe that? It makes it easier for them to control how you practice Islam. And so they would have you believe that religion requires blind faith and involves no logic means that if you were to believe in Islam, it meant that you had to just accept things as-is for
What happens when you be eternally damned to hell. Or so many would want you to apply reason and logic to Islam? You would believe. whatsoever. Or what many would like to call a “leap of faith.” no reason but because God says so. I can’t accept that because it basically

this religion somehow is seen to have more "don't" than "dos". cannot do this, you'll rot in hell...

how are we supposed to entice others if we keep signalling that this is a religion with no tolerance? i always take comfort that of all the 99 names that god can select, 3 are repetitive.. 'the forgiver'... al-ghaffar, al-ghaffur, al-afuw

the wearing of head-scarf: this is another topic that mystify me. during our grandma days, u hardly see anyone in it unless u are reading the quran [even then, your upper hair would still be seen]... suddenly in the 80's, it started to gain momentum, and by now i even see almost toddlers wearing them!!! If you are not wearing, you are the minority. so much emphasis on the 'zahir', the physical appearance...

what actually happened? during our grandma's time, i'm sure there were a lot of pious muslim

too..... did they overlook this matter?? how's that possible if this is such a vital ingredient to be

a 'good' muslim?

extracted from www.quranic.org

26 - O you children of Adam! We have bestowed raiment upon you to cover your private parts as well as to be an adornment to you.
7 The Purgatory, 26

The minimum covering for both men and women has been since times immemorial the covering of the private parts of a person as foreseen in Verses 26-22 of the Sura The Purgatory. There are three verses in the Quran that have reference to a woman’s attire.

THERE IS NO MENTION OF COVERING THE HEAD FOR WOMEN

31 – Say to the believing women to lower their eyes and guard their private parts, and not display their ornaments (ziynet) except what is apparent outwardly, and cover their bosom with their veils (hýmar). And not show their ornaments except to their husbands or their fathers or the fathers of their husbands or their sons or the sons of their husbands or their brothers or the sons of their brothers and the sons of their sisters or their women or their captives or male servants free of physical need or small children who have no sense of the shame of sex. They should not strike their feet in order to draw attention to their hidden ornaments. And O believers! All of you shall repent to God that you may succeed.
24 The Light, 31

The Arabic word hýmar means simply ‘cover.’ It has a wide range of meanings. It may be any cover such as the table napkin. If it is used to cover the head, it will signify the headscarf. However, if the head had been the target, the expression should have been hýmar-ur-ras meaning the covering of the head. However, in the context, one should understand the portion of the body corresponding to the bosom. Therefore it is the low-necked attire that is meant here. Even though the headscarf was the corresponding meaning, one should conclude that it was to be used to cover a woman’s bosom and not her head.

i am babbling a lot about things that i don't know in depth.... is it a sin to question?? wallahualam...

i believe that different people have different views + can interpret it differently. hence, there is more than 1 'mazhab' in islam

someday
somehow

i hope, we as muslim could do a better job to promote this beautiful religion as well as understanding it ...............

till then
a-s-s-a-l-a-m-u-a-l-a-i-k-u-m readers

paint me

2011-09-15T15:37:00.015+08:00

painter's studio in bukit antarabangsa @ chief's studio

the painting on the right cost rm 22,000.00!

a - w - e - s - o - m - e !!!!!!

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

thought it is just appropriate to include this song.... tribute to van gogh

everywhere you looked........ it was a - r - t ...!....!

judging from the number of canvas in this house, it would be likely that there is more than rm 200,000.00 worth of paintings here!!

don't you just wish..... that you could paint like these
..... sigh sigh.....
who knows

someday
somehow

or.... maybe not!

just like playing guitar
it looks easy......
but to me, it's really really hard!!!

happy birthday ....... quran

2011-08-17T13:52:00.093+08:00

today is quran's birthday........ sounds strange mentioning it like that...! anyways here in selangor [state where i work] is a public holiday. i say this because some places [like kuala lumpur] it's a working day. supposedly, it's a public holiday because we are to pay respect. however, here it becomes a nightmare for those who work in kl coz loads of the non-working-for-a-day would be flocking the shopping centers/ bazaars for the raya celebration! so.... what is the point of giving a holiday when you don't even celebrate!!!

anyways, here in this office [we are working today... by choice so that our raya holidays could be stretched longer], we are trying to set a tradition to celebrate the birth of the book.... everyone [..not forcing though] would recite any part of the quran for about 1/2 hour.

these are some facts about the quran which i am sure a lot of us don't know:

extracted from :
http://aqadeerm.webs.com/generalknowledge.htm

GENERAL KNOWLEDGE OF HOLY QURAN.

How many Sura are in Holy Quran ?                        114
How many Verses are in Holy Quran ?                     6666
How many parts of Holy Quran ?                          30
How many time the word 'Quran' is repeated in Holy Quran ?     70
Which is the longest Sura of Holy Quran ?           Al-Baqarah.
Which is the best drink mentioned in Holy Quran ?          Milk.
The best eatable thing mentioned inHoly Quran is ?           Honey.
Which is the shortest Sura of Holy Quran ?               Qausar.
The longest verse of Holy Quran is in which Sura?    Al-Baqarah No.282

The most disliked thing by the God though Halal is ?     Divorce
Which is the best night mentioned in Holy Quran ?        Night of Qadar.
Which is the best month mentioned in Holy Quran ?       Ramzan.
Which is the biggest animal mentioned in Holy Quran ?     Elephant.
Which is the smallest animal mentioned in Holy Quran ?      Mosquito
Which Sura of Holy Quran is called the mother of Quran ?    Sura Hamd
Which sura is called the heart of Holy Quran ?                      Yaseen.
In which Sura the name of Allah is repeated in every verse ?        Sura Mujadala.

Which sura is having the laws about marriage ?                           Sura Nesa..

What is the meaning of the word "Qur'an"?                     That which is Read.
Where was the Qur'an revealed first?                           In the cave of Hira (Makkah)
On which night was the Qur'an first revealed?   Lailatul-Qadr (Night of the Power)
Through whom was the Qur'an revealed?                            Through Angel Jibraeel (Alaihis-Salaam)
Which is the book which is read most?                                                        The Qur'an
What are the other names of the Qur'an according to the Qur'an itself?
Al-Furqaan, Al-Kitaab, Al-Zikr, Al-Noor, Al-Huda

Who is the first 'Haafiz' of the Qur'an?                                                  Prophet Muhammed S.A.W
At the time of the death of Prophet Muhammed S.A.W. how many Huffaz were there?        22
How many times has the Qur'an stressed about Salaat or Namaaz (prayer)?              700 times
How many times has the Qur'an emphasized on alms or charity?   150
Name the Prophet whose name is mentioned and discussed most in the Qur'an?        Moosa A.S.

Who was the first person who counted the Aayaath (verses) of the Qur'an?                  Ayesha R.A.
On whose order was the Qur'an compiled completely in written form? A) Abu Bakr R.A.
Out of the copies of the Qur'an compiled by UsmanR.A., how many and where are they at present?
Only 2 copies. One in Tashkent and the other in Istanbul.
Which is the first and the most ancient Mosque according to the Qur'an?           Kaaba.
Who is the relative of the Prophet Muahmmed S.A.W. whose name is mentioned in the Qur'an? A) Abu Lahab

In which Holy Book of Non-Muslims the Qur'an mentioned repeatedly?
In the Holy Book of Sikh Community-Granth Saheb.

What according to the Qur'an is the root cause of the evil?                  Alcohol.
How long did Prophet Muhammed S.A.W. receive the revelation of the Qur'an in Makkah?            13 Years.
How long did Prophet Muhammed S.A.W. receive the revelation of the Qur'an in Madinah?          10 Years.
Where was the first Surah revealed?          In Makkah.
Where was the last Surah revealed?              In Madinah.
How many years did it take for the complete revelation of the Qur'an?        22 years, 5 months and 14 days.

Which is the Surah, which Allah taught as a Du'a(Prayer) ?           Surah-al-Fatihah.
What is the reason of keeping Surah-al-Fatihah in the beginning of the Qur'an?          It is the door to the Qur'an
What is the Surah (Chapter) revealed completely and found first place in the Qur'an?        Surah-al-Fatihah.

Who was the only lady whose personal name is found in the Qur'an?         Bibi Mariam A.S.
In which Surah (Chapter) of the Qur'an do you find maximum instructions?             Surah-al-Baqarah.
When and Where did the Prophet Muhammed S.A.W. and Jibraeel A.S. meet for the second time?
On Friday,18th Ramadan,in the Cave of Hira.
What was the interval between the first and the second revelation?          2 years and six months.
How many different names of Allah are mentioned in the Qur'an?              99.
Who were the three non-prophets whose names are mentioned with due respect in the Qur'an?
Luqman, Aziz of Egypt and Zulqarnain.
At the time Abu BakrR.A. how many companions had compiled the Qur'an in the form of a book? 75 companions.

Which is that only book which is completely memorized by millions of people in the world?           Al-Qur'an.
Which are the most popular transalations of the Qur'an in English?
Transalation by Muhammed Marmaduke Pickthall and by Allama Yusuf Ali.
Into how many languages of the world has the Holy Qur'an been transalated?             Nearly 103 languages.

27/08/11
i read in the facebook, friends putting status like 'lets hope this is not the last ramadhan = there'll still be years to come to celebrate this special month'
i used to dread the fasting month coz one has to .... fast! now i don't dread [can't really say i eagerly anticipate!] it anymore... it's a month where we put our worldly desire aside [...somewhat] and focus on taking advantage of all the bonus points that one can collect, insya-allah!

i also know now that it's not so much i love this world that i wanna live longer... it's just that i fear i do not have enough supply of good deeds to ensure my membership in heaven!!!

anyways, my staff's parents [both of them] died in this holy month, both were in a car accident then comma for about 3 weeks + another person i met recently [before this month] died in mecca [or madina] during his umrah with his family...... while i do sympathize with the family, i cannot help but thinking .... what a nice way to die [being with your loved ones + dying in the holy month!]

this is the first ramadhan that i have woken up for sahur [iftar... nope 'iftar' is breaking of fast] the most.... maybe since primary school...... and that was very very very long ago!

this is also the first ramadhan that i so anticipate or look forward to lailathul qadr [last night was the 27th night]. who actually knows when that special night comes???
even when it does come, can we [the mere mortals] actually feel it, or do just special chosen lucky people get to have this privilege?... wallahualam.
i was reading in the net about signs [afterwards] of this special night... the next day is not so bright..... well, today feels like that.... or maybe i'm reading too much into this!

i hope

someday

somehow

all of us do get to experience the magic of'the night of power' [lailathul qadr]
coz it better that 1000 months + all our sins will be washed away
and insya-allah book us a one-way ticket to heaven....!!

clean-up 2.0

2011-07-19T19:01:00.036+08:00

powerful posters taken from fahmi reza's blog

from susan sloone's blog

Bring on the tears gas,
Water cannons
Riffles, batons,
And handcuffs.
Bring on your shackles
Drag us through
The streets of KL
See us bleed
See us scream
But you’ll never see us cry

stories of 907 can be read here by people who were touched by this event.....malaysian insider

this is my story.....

took the commuter at 10.30am, a few cops manning the entrance. saw a few fellows which you know/ feel are going to the same destiny. initially wanted to stop at bank negara [so that could just walk across to sogo] but was informed that that station was closed so decided to stop at kl sentral... more cops with trucks hauling people into it, don't quite understand why coz they looked harmless [to me at least]. pretty quiet here, no large crowd anywhere

photo showing typical road in downtown kl.... odd right??? no vehicles or public buses at all, only loads of police/ fru trucks. only public transportation was the lrt + commuter
kl lumpuh....!

from kl sentral, decided to take lrt stop-over at masjid jamek since someone smsed that the station was not closed.

upon arriving, heard chanting from outside.... knew we were at the right place! the police ushered us out to the direction opposite so that we were unable to join in the crowd

then we saw the fru/ police lining up on the street [assuming jalan tun perak]... yup you never saw this busy road so empty!

we did not have any agenda on where to go so we decided to follow a group of doctors [they were wearing badges] to feel safer + they said they were walking to dataran maybank

then we saw a lot of people walking the street..... i mean A LOT!!

destination...... stadium merdeka!!

people were chanting 'bersih bersih, hidup bersih!'

and here comes the red devils!!!

police helicopters hoovering + circling around, for whatever reason. simply annoying + noisy + waste of taxpayers money on the fuel!

the pudu walkaton!!!

during this time, strangers were passing salt + towels + water so to shield from the teargas..... you kind off felt united!

and yes... we sang 'negaraku'.... how's that for patriotism!!! eat that patriots!!!

some getting help from strangers on the street

some prayed on the street of pudu.... never before!

look at these photos carefully..... do we really look like we are these mean group that has the intention to do damage?????

we come in peace....

police gathering their numbers getting quite aggressive at the tung shin hospital compound.... was beginning to get scared coz the policeMEN were beating up a bystander just next to me. was praying hard for safety

people started to create human chain for fear being nabbed by the police

"The wind could have blown smoke from tear gas into the compound of Tung Shin Hospital, claims the health minister" - Malaysiakini.

so people... this is just photoshopped!!!

teargas fired at tung shin hospital

the scene after all the drama was over..... walking back

my sister posing in front of petaling street, no trading today, only 3 or 4 traders were brave enough to open!

fancy seeing pak samad also walking the street.... must take picture with the MAN!

what an experience...... so proud to be walking with strangers [yet feeling safe] for a good cause

if there is another bersih 3.0, who knows whether i am able to attend

someday
somehow

i hope the government would see that the people that walked on 9 july 2011 are not a bunch of anti-government trying to ruin the image of the country,
only a cleaner + fairer system

is that really too much to ask?

piss off !!

2011-06-23T09:43:00.008+08:00

i love my country but there are things that just pisses me off.... lets cite a few examples :

extracted from
taken from 'malaysia chronicle' 23/6/11

'KUALA LUMPUR - An admission that money collected under Zakat had been used to pay for legal fees involving a minister and another official has threatened to erupt into yet another financial scandal. Speaking to reporters at the parliament lobby today, Machang member of parliament Saifuddin Nasution urged the government to explain why it took RM32,000 from the zakat collection of the Federal Territory Islamic Religious Council (MAIWP) to pay for legal fees involving minister in the Prime Minister's Department Jamil Khir Baharom and director general of the Federal Territory Religious Department (JAWI), Che Mat Ali.'

extracted from
taken from 'yahoo news malaysia 20/6/11

KUALA LUMPUR, June 19 — Perkasa kicked off its Bersih 2.0 counter-protest here in Kampung Baru today by burning images of Bersih chairman Datuk Ambiga Sreenevasan and issuing a warning to the Chinese to stay indoors as “anything could happen”.

Perkasa Datuk Ibrahim Ali, who earlier appointed himself “war general”, said if electoral reform coalition Bersih goes through with its July 9 rally, he will not be held responsible for any untoward incidents which may occur.

“Imagine if chaos erupts. If the Bersih rally is not cancelled... I believe the Chinese community will have to stock up on food."

the perkasa chief ibrahim ali

extracted from
taken from 'malaysian insider 16/6/11

Yesterday, Ng appeared to contradict her ministry’s detailed account of the cost for each page when she said that the Facebook pages were free. Her deputy, James Dawos Mamit, earlier told Parliament that each Facebook page had cost RM293,072.

Instead, Ng said the RM1.8 million would cover the cost of six different campaigns over seven months, and included the cost of contests and advertising on Google and Facebook.

Citrawarna 1 Malaysia, the most popular page, has so far attracted 20,292 Facebook fans since it was launched on May 21.

In his response, Mamit said that the RM1.8 million included costs for designing, flash programming and coding, testing and debugging, uploading and launching the application, system server deployment and campaign management.

this is yen yen.... our tourism minister

note: a facebook page was setup [free!!!!] called 'curi-curi wang malaysia' + within 2 days reached 20,000 likes! eat that yen-yen!

do join + like the page

taken from 'malaysian insider 23/6/11

The text message warned Ambiga as well as PAS and PKR leaders from going ahead with the July 9 Bersih rally, and said her life would be in jeopardy should it (the rally) proceed.

“Korg ni buta hati ke?? buat apa sokong ambiga keling paria haramjadah tu? dia ni kapir laknat. korang tau tak dia ni jadi alat anjing2 politik untuk musnahkan keutuhan melayu. dia kata je nak BERSIH kan SPR. bersih kepala bapak dia. puak2 PAS n PKR pun buta tuli n pekak badak.. kalau SPR tak bersih, boleh ke diorang menang kat Sgor, Kedah, Penang, Kelantan n perak dulu?

“DAP cina sial tu pulak lagi haram jahanam. dia tengok je melayu bertekak. hujung2 dia perintah negara ni dan kristiankan kita semua. aku nak kasi amaran kat korang semua. kalau perhimpunan ni jadi, aku dan org2 aku akan bunuh ambiga dan korang2 keliling dia satu persatu, termasuklah orang2 politik bangang yang bersekongkol ngan kafir laknat tu.. ini amaran aku. Korang tengok nanti.”

(Are you people blind? Why would you support that pariah keling Ambiga? She is an infidel. Don’t you know that she is a tool of those political dogs who are out to destroy the strength of the Malays. She is just saying she wants to clean up the EC, she should clean up her father’s head. And the PAS, PKR leaders, they are deaf, dumb, blind and illiterate. If the EC is not clean then how did they win Selangor, Kedah, Penang, Kelantan and Perak? The damned Chinese DAP is even more despicable. They just watch the Malays go at each other’s throats. In the end, they will rule the country and turn all of us into Christians. I am warning you all. If this rally happens, me and my people will kill Ambiga and you can all corner her one by one, including those stupid politicians who associate themselves with this infidel. This is my warning. Watch and see.)

what is 'bersih' you ask?

The Coalition for Clean and Fair Elections (BERSIH 2.0) believes that a working democracy is built upon the foundation of clean, free and fair elections. Therefore, the role of the Election Commission (EC) in conducting elections with integrity and impartiality is crucial in the democratisation of the nation.

The electoral system of this country is marred with irregularities, electoral offences and rampant abuse of powers. As the EC has not made any marked efforts in initiating changes towards a clean and fair electoral system, BERSIH 2.0 has decided to organise a rally to intensify pressure in light of the upcoming 13th General Elections.

the bersih rally in nov 2007, supposedly 50,000 attended!

These are the 8 immediate demands for Perhimpunan BERSIH 2.0:

1. Clean the electoral roll
2. Reform postal ballot
3. Use of indelible ink
4. Minimum 21 days campaign period
5. Free and fair access to media
6. Strengthen public institutions
7. Stop corruption
8. Stop dirty politics

dare you to join this too!

someday
somehow
i hope we do have a government + system
that we can love + be proud of
but not now

for now
it's just the country i can admit i love

flowers of the high lands

2011-05-21T19:08:00.018+08:00

last friday went on a day trip to cameron highlands... to visit a potential project. at first, i was rather reluctant to go coz it's not a confirmed project, but i tot... why not... it would be good to take a break and smell the roses..... turned out that's what i did..... literally taking pictures of flowers!

when you see all these, surely you must believe there is a GOD. so many variety of shapes, colors, smell [or none].... it's really attention to details coz some of these plants are not significant + yet all are different.

so that stephen hawkings chap, who supposedly is so brilliant can be so dumb for discharging the concept of there is a god
extracted from guardian [http://www.guardian.co.uk/science/2011/may/15/stephen-hawking-interview-there-is-no-heaven]

A belief that heaven or an afterlife awaits us is a "fairy story" for people afraid of death, Stephen Hawking has said.

In a dismissal that underlines his firm rejection of religious comforts, Britain's most eminent scientist said there was nothing beyond the moment when the brain flickers for the final time.

of late, my blogs are filled more with photos than words....
but then, a picture tells a 1000 words! i am sure you prefer looking at these pretty pictures rather than my rantings!

anyways, why did god create flowers?
i don't know but i am glad for these god's creation.

there was a time when i felt alone....
i would buy flowers every other week so that when i came home, the flowers would greet me + somehow it would ease a bit on the loneliness..

so yes, i love flowers!!

someday
somehow
............ i can't think of anything that would link with flowers coz there is no need for
someday
someday

you can just go anywhere anything to enjoy the beauty of god's gift

the many faces of innocence

2011-03-21T10:47:00.009+08:00

my niece...... aisya

innocence

our world still have some innocence
but no one can see it, no one look close
some moments we live it, it is amazing
but no one really knows

isn't bad to find that beauty is bing left
don't you feel sorry, when you find people just forget
how much innocence has a great hand
how much beauty she have inside

this innocence is brilliant
why we left away
that touch that it place
it's innocence

Fadwa Daddou Gmiden

Young Innocence'

Today... Holding the hand Of pure Innocence,
A day spent... viewing nature, seeing the,
Artistry of fall at work...through the eyes..
Of her... this young child... of purity and..

Awe.. This wide eyed girl, smiles abound..
Thrilled by all the sights, and the treasures
She found on this walk into nature, on this day..
Filling pockets with feathers, colorful leaves,

Small stones, pine cones, and nuts... She running.
Laughing, rosy cheeks and freshness, giving to nature
And receiving all that nature offered...
Oh, how full of pride and pleasure, I was filled with..

To see her, as she pranced about, touching and smelling,
All within her grasp, looking up high to the tree tops,
And within my heart, I now know.. That what I taught,
Will carry on in her heart, a blessing to Earth Mother,

And nature, she will carry on with the simplicity and...
Respect, that is from a pure heart.... her appreciation
Of giving back to that which we receive from....
All this from the Innocence of a Child..

By Soft Walker

someday

somehow

she will grow up

and the innocence will be

innocence no more......

let's get passionate

2011-02-24T12:42:00.019+08:00

article in malaysian insider [february 24 2011] by sharmini darshni

We need to get angry!

FEB 24 — Like choosing between having your eggs scrambled or poached, making a choice when I face a fork in the road is sometimes easy, and sometimes the hardest thing I could ever do.

As I grow up, I realise that life is a series of choices. Sometimes you make the right one, other times you make a horrible one and sometimes you hold out on making one and try to pretend that it’s not there. Doesn’t work, but you try.

Choices lead to freedom. And personal freedom, in essence, is how I choose to live my life. Accountable and responsible for, and to, myself, first and foremost.

Lately, my thoughts on freedom have evolved into what I now feel to be one of the most historically beautiful words in the English language: Liberty.

Defined as “freedom from control, interference, obligation, restriction, hampering conditions,” in instances of “power or right of doing, thinking, speaking, etc., according to choice”, I often feel that somewhere along the way, we may have forgotten this.

As a person, I, like you, have experienced, made mistakes, met the wrong people, met the wrong person, been bruised, been scarred, bruised and scarred others, met the right person and didn’t know it, loved, lost, felt pain, was angry, lost track — in short, we lived.

As a country, though, I have been pondering, often gravely, on what has happened to our liberty. Our “freedom from control, interference, obligation, restriction, hampering conditions” — where is it?

We fight, yes, but what are we fighting for, really? I hear “democracy” being bandied about and to a level, we have that. But it is liberty I seek, the “unwarranted or impertinent freedom in action or speech” — so powerful yet so lacking.

I read there could be an uprising in Malaysia akin to Egypt, that the conditions were ripening, and it could just take a good, hard shove to jerk people of this country into action.

I have yet to decide whether I want to see this happen, but what I know I do want to see happen, is for us to get angry. As a citizen, I am not angry enough.

As a nation, we are not angry enough.

So get angry. Get angry for freedom and liberty in a personal and national sense. This is not only about rights or democracy. This is about a fountain springing from inside you. Enough fountains will make a waterfall powerful enough to bring change.

Get angry about the flawed public education system which seems to be a test bed of sorts for government policies; keep demanding the preservation of actual, factual history; keep calling for the growth of local art and music on the national agenda; keep reminding everyone that sex workers have rights too; keep shouting for the actual practice of democracy; and keep the honest dialogues to understand religions present in Malaysia.

i too believe that we cannot be content with what is going on in this country
am i thankful that i live in malaysia?..... yes
but i love this country too much to just accept things the way it is

there is too much corruption,
too much arrogance,
too much of screwed 'justice' system like the court + macc

my friend said i get too worked up when talking about politics... i will not argue that fact
yes i admit i am angry about things that happen in this country + i am also angry about people who could care less on how this country is being ran
is there any good to get angry or passionate ... isn't it just a waste of energy?

extracted from loyarburok.com

Dilemmas Of A Young Malaysian Abroad
23 February, 2011
By Alea Nasihin

And as I sit in my little student room in Nottingham and read about the latest Federal Court hearing or by-election outcome, or the latest racial slur by a politician, or the latest "religious" festival that has been banned, I think to myself: Why should I go back? What’s in it for me back home? Why should I go home and try to fight for something that is obviously only going downhill? What role is there for a young law graduate whose interests lie in Human Rights and International Law — human rights, international law, Malaysia, are you kidding me?

And even if I did eventually go back, I realise it is surprisingly easy to not care and to get sucked into your own little material world with your own little problems. I came home for the summer with the full intention of getting into the thick of things and ended up spending most of my time drinking overpriced coffee in Bangsar, listening to my friends talk about internships in large law firms and financial powerhouses. Maybe I could get used to this life after all — it’s nice and cushy and there are yummy cocktails involved. What happened the last time I went for a demonstration of any kind in Malaysia? Oh policemen with riot shields chased me and the FRU trucks blocked my way home. I think I’ll take the cocktails, thanks.

In short, I had become the person I despised, without even realising it.

My wakeup call came in the form of the Aljazeera Youtube channel on 10 February. Watching Mubarak’s speech, and watching the energy in Tahrir Square, something in me snapped and I realised that maybe we could do it too. Sure, we had a few teething problems to address — like perhaps having a single united movement with the same aim in mind, but yeah, teething problems — but it wasn’t impossible. It could be in a few months, or a few years, or even a few decades, but there was hope at the end of the tunnel, and maybe at that time it’ll be our turn to scream and cheer in our very own Liberation Square as we finally realise that the country does, indeed, belong to the people. And I realised, it will kill me if I wasn’t a part of that.

There is a line from Yasmin Ahmad’s Gubra that I’ll always remember: "Sometimes, it’s like loving someone who doesn’t love you back," Orked says of Malaysia. And it’s true, sometimes it feels like we’re all alone, fighting and struggling for something that doesn’t even want to be fought for. Most of the time, there are a lot of easier options, like for me to just stay on in the UK and be perfectly content here. But I guess it’s like a long distance relationship, where you need to keep putting in the effort, and you need to keep trying, and at the end of the day you need to go back to the person you love.

We have a long, long road ahead of us. There won’t be any change (much less a full-fledged revolution) in Malaysia until we get our act together, until the people can come together and decide what it is that they want. We need to wipe out apathy amongst the youths, and educate and entire country about their rights and their choices. But amidst the darkness some people have lit their candles and they shine brighter than ever — the recent solidarity movement amongst students, the outpouring of protests against the PPPA and the building of the mega-tower, the fight of the indigenous people.

What these tell us is that we need to be patient and keep fighting the good fight and don’t ever give up.

anyway, my sister recently got offered to be a candidate as an adun [a representative/ voice of the people] in the the northern state... which i do hope that she will take it [and win] coz it is a chance of a lifetime, though it means a total change, no more privacy etc.... i would definitely vote for her! [yup.. cronyism in the making]

someday
somehow
i hope everyone would be passionate enough to be angry
+ hopefully make a difference [like what is happening in the middle east]
so that our children
+ our children's children
would have a better + just nation
+ world peace [i do sound like a beauty pageant!]

wave goodbye

2011-02-06T22:46:00.019+08:00

Interesting article in The Star (6 February 2011)

Beware wave for rights
SHARING THE NATION by ZAINAH ANWAR

I WENT to Egypt for the first time in 1981 and promptly fell in love with the country and its people. Until then, I thought I had never encountered the same warmth, generosity and hospitality as Malaysians had to offer.

And there, everyone, including strangers you just met, wanted you to visit their home, their farm, their village. They were proud of their history and their country – and wanted to feed you endlessly.

I have been back several times since for holidays and meetings. However, by my last visit at the end of 2009, I felt the country was ripe for a revolution. Decades of oppression, corruption and misrule had turned the once warm, proud people I met into angry, hardened individuals.

My Egyptian friend would turn on the radio to listen to the news every morning and instinctively say,
“I hope Hosni Mubarak is dead.”

I saw loud quarrels daily in the streets, whether it was in Cairo, Luxor or Aswan. Taxi drivers, camel, donkey and horse cart drivers fought with each other over who stole whose customers.

The “illegal” guides and touts at tourist sites cheated tourists blind as they left them stranded in the middle of the hot sands of the Pyramids, unless they were paid double for the ride back on their camels. Turned out the payment that had been negotiated before the journey had just been for a one-way trip.

And God forbid if you met the eye of a man trying to sell you postcards or plastic copies of the Sphinx or the Pyramids; he would not let you get away until you bought something.

In the end, I rationalised that they all needed the money more than I did and just gave in each time. But my last straw of patience was broken when I was trying to find transport between the domestic terminal to the international terminal in Cairo to catch my flight home.

I was sent on a merry-go-round to find my way out of the building and to the right bus stop. Even then I had to change buses to make that 10-minute trip! When I finally boarded the right bus to the international terminal, I announced in exasperation to the passengers,
“You need a new government.”

Those who could understand English stared at me for a moment and then turned to each other in hushed discussion.

A government that pays no attention to the basic needs of its people, and not even to the goose that lays its golden egg, will come to its inevitable end.

My Egyptian friends are not the only ones who are excited and passionate about this historic moment to topple a 30-year-old dictatorship: so are democrats in the Muslim world as we chat, tweet, blog and e-mail each other.

Finally, the democracy wave that swept Latin America and Africa is hitting the Arab world. And how significant that will be to the rest of the Muslim world.

Even though only about 20% of Muslims live in Arab lands, too many among us who live on supposedly the periphery of the Muslim world still look upon the Arab world as everything that is authentically Muslim. We, in the supposed periphery, who have kept Islam alive for centuries by our ability to adapt the practice and understanding of the faith to our cultural particularities were suddenly told
that the way we practised Islam – a kinder and gentler way – was “unIslamic”. It was jahilliyah – ignorant Islam.
Now that we knew what “true” Islam was, we needed to follow its authentic ways.

So our sarong kebaya, selendang, and even baju kurung were all not Islamic enough. We must now don the long loose jubah that hides our shape. And to please God more, we have to make it in solid black, navy blue or brown.

Our mak yong, wayang kulit and mandi putri were banned for all their syirik (placing an entity on the same level as God) elements. Suddenly, hundreds of years of culture and tradition of the Malay archipelago, which had absorbed the influences of great world civilisations, were pronounced unIslamic.

Never mind that we have become the poorer for it – as long as we are “authentically” Muslim.

The political Islam that developed within the geo-political context of the conflicts and competition of the Middle Eastern world became our struggle and our burden.

In the race to be “authentically” Muslim, we adopt laws that discriminate against women so that we can be more like the “authentic” Saudis.

We segregate men and women; we can no longer shake hands with those of the opposite sex; we forbid Muslims from greeting friends of other faiths on their festive occasions; and we justify child marriage in the name of Islam. Never mind all the evidence of the harm it causes to the child bride.

egyptian christians protecting the muslims while they pray

While those who wish for the status quo to remain in the Arab world push away the spectre of the Muslim Brotherhood and political Islamists coming to power in place of the despotic allies of the United States, my Arab friends are at pains to point out that what is happening in the streets of Tunisia, Egypt, Jordan, Yemen, and Sudan is a people’s uprising, in particular the revolution of the young, people with “no job, no money and no freedom”, as the Egyptian columnist Mona Eltahawy said.

They form 60% of the population in the Arab world; and they could have been a source of growth and wealth or a source of violence and instability, Arab development reports had warned for long.

My Arab friends are of course burgeoning with pride and confidence that what will eventually emerge in Egypt and Tunisia will be democratic governments.

The hundreds of thousands of people out in the streets in the Arab world are not demanding an Islamic state and Shariah law, they pointed out.

The uprising is not led by manic men in beards and faceless, joyless women in black. Arabs from all political persuasions and all walks of life are revolting against their despotic rulers. The only flags flying are national flags.

While the Islamist movement in both countries remain the largest political force, and there is worry that they might step into any political vacuum and commandeer power, this is not the world of 1979.

Back then, the Iranian revolution which had brought diverse social and political forces together was hijacked by the Islamists and transformed into an Islamic revolution.

Thirty-two years of Islamic rule has not brought Iran the social justice, democracy, and freedom the people yearned for. A despotic monarchy was replaced by a despotic theocratic rule.

In the 21st century, Muslims have seen the failure of the Islamic state experiment in Iran, Sudan and Afghanistan after the overthrow of secular regimes.

The return of Rashid Al-Ghannouchi, the 69-year-old leader of the Tunisian Islamist movement Al-Nahda, after a long exile in London is not the return of a Khomeini ready to impose vilayet-e-faqih, rule of the jurisconsult as God’s representative on earth.

In interviews, he has rejected this notion and criticised the Egyptian Muslim Brotherhood for its party position that an Ulama Council should supervise Parliament as in Iran where the all-powerful Guardian Council must approve all bills passed and has the power of veto if it considers them inconsistent with the Constitution and the Shariah.

He also criticised the Muslim Brotherhood’s position against Copts and women running for the presidency. Instead, he sees the AKP in Turkey (Justice and Development Party) as a model to follow, and the Scandinavian socio-economic model as the closest to his Islamic vision.

He believes in democracy and calls on Islamists to relinquish their ambition to monopolise Islam and impose a single, all-powerful interpretation which has proven to be inherently unstable and temporary, he said.

In the end, the proof of the pudding of course must be in the eating, but Ghannouchi is wise and strategic enough to capture the imagination and the mood of the times.

And the times have indeed changed.

terima kasih

2011-02-05T08:50:00.014+08:00

merci beaucoup french
danke german
kamsamnida korean
shukran arabic
spasibo russian
arigato japanese

to say in other languages thank you,
go here freelang.net

i was feeling down somehow yesterday, going through thoughts like :
why was i born like this
why can't i do more
blah blah blah

so my 'confucius' told me this :
in order to find peace, you must be thankful

nowadays whenever i pray to god, amongst the things that i pray is to have a peace of mind.... so i find that statement like a light bulb.... hence the name 'confucius'

one should not be looking on what one does not have [coz that'll will surely put one down] but focus + be thankful of what one has..... now i feel like confucius too

so that is what i need to do + remind myself every time i go through this self-pity shit
so here goes :

i am thankful that i have my health
i am thankful i am alive [though i do bitch about it]
i am thankful i have my appetite to eat whatever [as you get older, your taste bud would be taken away slowly]
i am thankful i can eat anything i want without thinking 'can i afford it'
i am thankful that i can travel anywhere, wherever i can too
i am thankful i have a nice office + my own too! [and has survived for a least 17 years + counting]
i am thankful i have caring staff [who feels like family]
i am thankful i have a lovely crib to come home to [though not my own]
i am thankful there are people who loves me
i am thankful i have a kampong to go back to [though i don't visit often, which i should]
i am thankful i have nice car[s] to drive
i am thankful i can still play tennis [somewhat] at this age
i am thankful my mom is still alive [and very active... her schedule is busier than mine!]
i am thankful we live in a peaceful country [though we can do without too much corruption]
i am thankful i have friends that i can hangout with
i am thankful i have nikon camera
i am thankful i have internet now [i can play online games]
i am thankful i have a cushy mattress to sleep
i am thankful the place i stay now seems very safe + well maintained [coz the security is top-notch + the management really takes care of this place]
i am thankful i feel guilty if don't pray 5x a day now
i am thankful we have yasseen recital every week
i am thankful we are a multi-racial nation that we have holidays every other week [ok.. exaggerated a bit]
i am thankful my siblings have cute kids [coz if they're not, i still have to love them... heh!]
i am thankful i have friends i can talk to in times of downs

this list can go on + on..... and i should not continue for fear that some readers could envy my life now....... ha ha, that's a joke!

well, supposed the point is like micheal jackson says
life ain't so bad at all

you can complain about roses having thorns or you can rejoice that thorns have roses -ziggy

in malay language, terima kasih is thank you. when directly translated, it means
receive love
i find this quite an interesting revelation.... don't you??

someday
somehow
everybody receives love + give love
so

corner of my mind

2010-12-31T12:02:00.019+08:00

today is the last day of this year..... 'how time flies'... why people say that, coz it didn't really do that, some days are short, some you can't just wait for it to end!

if i could remember / memorable events happening this year... here goes [not in chronological order] :
1. my best friend died in january.... his's still in my prayers everyday
2. i took 5 [well 6 actually if you count the ones in the country] vacations this year- hong kong, perth, beijing, perhentian, singapore, melbourne....... that's the most ever!!
3. i somewhat found replacement of my best friend... though it takes 2 to replace 1
4. i made an announcement to the staff that i would close shop if the firm did not get anymore new projects [the firm is now 16 years]...... somehow in this month, 1 small project actually moved!
5. i visited my old school which i had not been since school [i think] which is more than 30 years!

by next year [which is another few hours], i can no longer catogerized me in the mid-forties....... danggggggggg!
yup, how time flies!!! i was reading sophie kinsella's book 'twenties girl' about this ghost who was feeling in the 20's, even though she died at the age of 80's. it got me thinking that the mind is always young, just the body is not nsync.......

a few days back, i somewhat felt sad coz i was reminiscing the old days [not neccessarily good], moments, friends [which we are no longer close, coz people have lives to live] are now just memories, and after awhile, those fade too.....
memories become just books in your mind library. at the beginning, the stories are remembered + easily reachable, but after awhile, the are tucked somewhere not easily seen, well that makes me blue.....

this is my old dorm from the age of 13-17. i had one of the best times of my life here..... so many memories + this place did somewhat shaped me to be what i am today.

this is the place where we would hang out + 'lepak' before meals or people watching. like the cliche 'those were the good ol' days'. recently when i went there, the place looked familiar after all these years.... yet somehow alien. it was like going back to your old house, but it's not yours anymore. i do remember bits + pieces of these + that......

the way we were- b.streisand

Memories, light the corners of my mind
Misty water color memories of the way we were.
Scattered pictures of the smiles we left behind
smiles we give to one another
for the way we were.
Can it be that it was all so simple then
or has time rewritten every line?
If we had the chance to do it all again
tell me would we? Could we?

Memories, may be beautiful and yet
what's too painful to remember
we simply choose to forget
So it's the laughter we will remember
whenever we remember
the way we were.

yup.... getting sentimental here

someday
somehow
i might not remember a lot of stuff
[which is not be such a bad thing actually]
but i do hope i will still remember the significant ones at least....

so goodbye

so folks..... have a wonderful + blessed new year ..... clock's ticking away!

2012 - the end

2010-11-01T18:50:00.030+08:00

extracted from http://www.godandscience.org/

The year 2012 is supposed to result in a slew of natural disasters culminating in the end of the world (as we know it, or think we know it, as the case may be). We know this prediction is true because a bunch of savage, child sacrificing, jungle-dwelling Mayans2 prophesied it hundreds of years ago through their amazingly accurate calendar. Never mind that the date for Armageddon was originally set as December 24, 2011. We now know that these events will occur at exactly 11:11 GMT on December 21 2012, even though some Mayan predictions go all the way to 4772 A.D.3 Those Mayans really knew everything about astronomy, since their calendar consisted of 260-day periods, which we now know represents the true length of the solar year!

According to the Mayan calendar, the "Great Cycle" equates with 5,125.36 years, which began on August 11, 3114 B.C. and ends in 2012. Unfortunately for the Maya (but maybe fortunately for us), they ended before their calendar.

The Maya were not the only people to predict the end of the world. Incan and Egyptian calendars, as well as with the prophecies of Nostradamus, Edgar Cayce (famous for predicting from 1958-1998 that a tilting of the Earth’s axis would result in "The earth will be broken up in the western portion of America.

The greater portion of Japan must go into the sea."), and the I Ching, Hopi Indians, along with a slew of wackos have indicated that the apocalypse will occur in December 2012. Nostradamus predicted a great comet, Nibiru, would impact the Mediterranean on December 21, 2012 (or was it the year 1999? - close enough!).

about nostradamus :
[from http://www.december2012endofworld.com/nostradamus-2012]

Michel de Nostredame or Nostradamus as he is popularly called, was born in France in 1503. He was a kind of pharmacist and a healer and around 1550 he developed an interest in the occult sciences and started writing almanacs. He became famous for these and many people used to come to him for horoscopes and asking psychic advice. Later he started summarizing his prophecies and writing them in quatrains which is a four lines poetic para in French. He compiled about a thousand of these undated quatrains into a book called “The Prophecies” for which he is very famous even today. Nostradamus wrote in a cryptic style and his quatrains need interpretation. Many have found that most of these predictions have been accurate and his prophecies are highly regarded by astrologers and in many occult circles.

extracted from malaysiakini 1/11/10

Perlis mufti Mohd Asri Zainul Abidin has called on Anwar Ibrahim to retire for the sake of an effective oppositon

i find this comment made from this controversial 'mufti' is bold + daring + does ring some truth। anwar, the charasmatic leader, has intrumentally been the force that has changed the political landscape in malaysia. however, due to a lot of court cases which he is involved, i believe that he cannot have his full attention to steer pkr + pr as a whole. i too think the same as asri.

why do i write about 'the end'...... ...
recently, i had made an announcement to my staff that if there is still no firm job by the end of 2011, i would have to made a radical move to close the office. this announcement came as a shock to most, but i have to made drastic decision because i just realized that we have not secured any projects since 2008! of course this is not an easy decision, after all i have had the firm since 1994, so by next year, it'll be about 17 years!

i am tired of pitching for projects without any real conclusion
i am tired of doing proposals for free... or it feels somewhat free [for the amount we charged]
i am tired of chasing for the fees owed to us + sometimes so difficult to collect eventhough service had been rendered
i am tired of going through the same notion
i am tired of everyone thinks he/she is an architect too that whatever issues is discussed, he/she knows better
...... actually i am just plain tired!!

4 november 2010 [it's my mom's birthday today]

taken from abdul malek's facebook 4/11/10 :

Well for those of you who are still in architorture, that was what they have to say about wages and occupations. The chief argument here is the immutable law of labour: when there are a lot of people willing and able to do a job, that job generally doesn’t pay well

while i bitch about this profession, i do love it, it's a case of 'can't live with it, can't live without it'. i was fortunate [or not!] to know what i wanted to be since i was small + never had any other option .... okayyy maybe a rockstar!

anyways i do sincerely hope it never comes [the closing of office] coz i wouldn't know what to do afterwards + i have not seriously tot about it [...maybe because i don't dare to]....

someday
somehow
i will figure out what to do next
but for now......
it's just que sera sera

smile............. please!

2010-09-22T14:39:00.029+08:00

tis morning i felt heavy or weak [not physically], like a negative cloud suddenly smothering .... it's like that song
'o when the saints, o when the saints come marching in'.... this negative thoughts just come rushing in from all sides + you simply cannot push all away + you get tired........

feeling not much good is going on.... one starts questioning one's ability of doing anything, how could you improve yourself coz you are not good enough, if you had a better life than what you have right now...... well, the list is not exhaustive coz that's how it goes when negativity sinks in!

then i heard this song on the radio

Hey, slow it down
What do i want from me?
Yeah, I'm afraid
What do i want from me?
There might have been a time when I would give myself away
Once upon a time I didn't give a damn
But now, here we are
So what do i want from me?

Just don't give up, I'm working it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, What do i want from me?
What do i want from me????? - adam lambert

feels like i'm singing to myself..........

just hang in there + don't give up on me!

of course if i talked to friends, they'd say 'what??? you've achieve so much! why are you complaining?' ...... i know, i should be thankful for all that god has given me........ why is it we are always hard on ourselves, we judge ourselves, we say we should do this, do that, like we are not good enough for us..... please give ourselves a break!!
stupid feeling!!! get away from me...........now!

let's concentrate on 'feel good' modes :

Don't waste a minute being unhappy. If one window closes - run to the next window - or break down a door.

The secret of happiness is not in doing what one likes to do, but in liking what one has to do- James Barrie

What a wonderful life I've had. I only wish I had realized it soon- Collette

Always remember to forget the things that made you sad, but never forget to remember the things that made you glad- Victor Borge

Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive- Elbert Hubbard

The best thing about the future is that it comes only one day at a time- Abraham Lincoln

Borrow money from पेस्सिमिस्ट्स, they don't expect it back.

The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.

Careful with that light at the end of the tunnel, it might be another train coming

Don't try to be different. Just be good. To be good is different enough. ~Arthur Freed

Happiness is a perfume you cannot pour on others without getting a few drops on yourself- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted- Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go- Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)

I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work- Thomas Alva Edison (1847-1931)

Copy from one, it's plagiarism; copy from two, it's research- Wilson Mizner (1876-1933)

There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it- Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)

There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle- Albert Einstein (1879-1955)

If laughter is contagious, then let's create a happiness epidemic.

so there people
let's just smile
a bit
a lot
now coz
someday
somehow
the world will smile back .... or not

book that face

2010-08-27T11:53:00.039+08:00

taken from 'crunchbase.com'

Facebook is the world’s largest social network, with over 500 million users.

Facebook was founded by Mark Zuckerberg in February 2004, initially as an exclusive network for Harvard students. It was a huge hit: in 2 weeks, half of the schools in the Boston area began demanding a Facebook network. Zuckerberg immediately recruited his friends Dustin Moskowitz and Chris Hughes to help build Facebook, and within four months, Facebook added 30 more college networks.

The original idea for the term Facebook came from Zuckerberg’s high school (Phillips Exeter Academy). The Exeter Face Book was passed around to every student as a way for students to get to know their classmates for the following year. It was a physical paper book until Zuckerberg brought it to the internet.

one cannot deny how facebook in now part of us.... it has made the impossible happened, to be able to be in touch with friends/ relatives/ or whoever that you never thought possible coz you lost touch for the longest time somehow is possible now! and the best part is it's free!!

i don't supposed you'll ever know what great service you have done for me coz i got connected to those that i would never ever thought could get connected
.........................................................
so thank you sir ....
mr zuckerberg!

read more in 'wikipedia' about this genius
this chap was born in 1984..... danggggggg!

whether we want to admit it or not, we are addicted....... and i for one, am an addict!

status of friends in facebook:

‎'Never hold your farts in. They travel up your spine, into your brain, and that's where you get shitty ideas.' -eddie kramer

'Expecting Life to treat you fairly because you are good, is like expecting the bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian...'- nana

'In love, distance does not have to be measured in miles. Missing can occur even when someone is at the end of your finger tips.'- karina

Jgn takut mati, jgn cari mati, jgn lupakan mati krn mati satu2nya pintu brjumpa dg Allah(QS2:46). "Sungguh mati itu adalah istirehatnya org2 beriman setelah ibadah & amal sholeh"...Kini, jgn takut lagi dgn mati, sahabatku...lagi pula dunia ini bukan tempat sebenarnya...-noraliza

'One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else'- nadiah

SOMETIMES GOD BREAKS OUR SPIRIT TO SAVE OUR SOUL. SOMETIMES HE BREAKS OUR HEART TO MAKE US WHOLE. SOMETIMES HE SEND US PAIN SO WE CAN BE STRONGER. SOMETIMES HE SEND US SICKNESS SO WE TAKE BETTER CARE OF OURSELVES. SOMETIMES HE TAKES EVERYTHING AWAY FROM US SO WE CAN LEARN THE VALUE OF EVERYTHING WE HAVE....- rose my

'Sometimes, tears are a sign of unspoken happiness, and smile is a sign of silenced pain.'- eddie

likes :

IF ANYBODY SENDS ME ANYMORE MORE FARMVILLE REQUEST I AM GOING TO BURN YOUR CROPS AND KILL YOUR ANIMALS!

Life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life..:)

The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have.

Don't worry about the people in your past; There's a reason they didn't make it to your future

Dear God, Please bring back Bob Marley, In return you can have Justin Bieber

The older I get the less I care what other people think!

i now have about 200 friends [really!!?#] in facebook that is.... in reality maybe just 10%!

someday
somehow
maybe i would have more real friends.... but i am not complaining or keeping सकारे....... heh!

paradise.... ???

2010-08-14T21:46:00.033+08:00

last month i put a posting about it would be wonderful to go to the beach....... well i went 2 weeks ago to pulau perhentian.... then marang, then redang

looking at the sunset pictures, you'd think 'aaaaahhhh paradise!!'...

well i'd hold that thought for awhile!

in the first place it was a last minute decision to go there. the rest of the 'gang' [about 24] had gone earlier, they were in a convoy travelling by car.. took them 8 hours eventhough they went through a shortcut... and got lost!

anyway, we [me actually] drove there too. by the time we got to besut [the jetty], it was 2am + hotels were fully booked! however, the people there were extremely friendly + went out of their ways to help us locate a room but no luck. we ended up sleeping in the car... my first! yup .. bohemian style!

by the time we reached the island, it turned out there was no room available! so our other friends had to loose their room to give us + they ended up bunking in another friends room. note : i am not calling it a suite coz the room was definitely not cozy + a lot of things didn't work + they rationed the electricity + yes, forget room service or hospitality!! these vocabs do not exist here!

the massage hut near moonlight restaurant in perhentian

anyway, we were supposed to stay for 2 nights..... but one can only plan! that night, somehow, one of the gang did a disturbing act to one the mat-salleh girl, who turned out to be one the kampong boy's girlfriend. so he got beaten-up really bad by 30 village boys! the shocking part was his friends were there, and none helped!

the next day, we found out that we had to leave the island, taking the advice of our tour leader, so that the last night commotion did not occur again + he feared it might escalate! ....yup, we listened! packed our bags + sold our room for 1/2 price + off we went on the next boat out!

a lizard [or some animal of that sort] also resided at our chalet

'like a bridge over troubled water'... the bridge to our chalet

the rest of the gang went back kl. we [9 of us] decided otherwise coz 4 of them came all the way from down under to have a vacation... we thought the incident should not spoilt our beach mood! so we drove to marang + checked into a very very nice hotel! the fact that the toilet flush worked, electricity + a/c and we had tea + coffee in the room! trust me, you too would appreciate all these facilities.... especially after you've to perhentian where we stayed!

the view from our infinity pool....... nice!

this resort is in redang..... nope, we didn't stay there..... wished we did!

we then rented a boat to go to redang + that was absolutely wonderful! the snorkeling experience felt like you were in an aquarium! i only saw loads of colorful fishes but some saw sharks + turtles! however, i did catch a fish with my bare hands + drove the boat! beat that!!

they say things happened for a reason..... i am actually glad that we got thrown out from perhentian coz if we didn't, we would never experience redang + would be stuck in that crabby chalet!

so thank you for friends for the adventure..... it's true about "it's not the destination but the the journey that ..." okayyy i forgot that sentence but you know.... right?!

someday
somehow
i wish i could sit by the beach...... wait! i was there!!!!
and it was a wonderful experience with wonderful friends

the whole trip was a trip!!

places marked- hong kong

2010-08-07T15:45:00.016+08:00

Short trip to hong kong for 3 days 2 night in late january this year... about a week after my close friend died. this trip was preplanned + paid so did not see why should waste it.

the busy in front of the hotel where we stayed

branded stores

a bit about hong kong, extracted from wikipedia :

The name "Hong Kong" is an approximate phonetic rendering of the pronunciation of the spoken Cantonese or Hakka name "香港", meaning "fragrant harbour" in English. Before 1842, the name referred to a small inlet – now Aberdeen Harbour or Little Hong Kong – between the island of Ap Lei Chau and the south side of Hong Kong Island, which was one of the first points of contact between British sailors and local fishermen.

night view... laser show

the scruptious noodle in a cup which cost rm8!

surprisingly the weather was chilly + people dressing gorgeously!

this is how they do the scaffolding in hong kong... yup they have been 'green' ages ago.

the hsbc corporate tower
architect : norman foster

the hotel lobby where we stayed

the airport

precious moments... when will i see you again?

2010-07-18T13:24:00.033+08:00

remember the song by diana ross [i can't remember the title] that goes something like this

'when will i see you again
when will we share precious moment'

note : the rest of the wordings are not relevant in this case. ooopsss it turned out that the singer is 'the three degrees .........i never knew that!

my friend [i used to be his boss..] is diagnosed with stage 4 kidney cancer recently. the news affected me a lot, i don't quite point out why... to say that i am very close to him, i don't think so coz he's in penang + i am here. i only saw him maybe 2-3 weeks ago + at that time, he was fine + he was fine according to him. he too, only discoovered this devastating news very very recent. He says that he does not feel any sickness, so the news about stage 4 was shocking. he'll be having an operation soon to remove his kidney + i hope all is well.

the point is whenever we see someone, a friend, a loved one, whoever... who can say if we would ever meet again, because we'll never know. so i am glad i met up with him......
he is now in my prayers....

i figure it bothers me coz maybe, just maybe i might not see him again...... i supposed as we grow older, more people we know will die, just a natural progression of life.

Every soul must taste death and We try you by evil and good way of probation; and to Us you shall be brought back
Al-Quran 21:35

the point is we can be healthy one day and not the next day. everyday we wake up, we take for granted of at lot of things which to is a natural part of us, like
be able to wake up at all
be able to move about
be able to eat
that we forgot to say our thank you + count our blessings. we get caught in the so-called more important issues in our lifes.... which at the end, turns out not so important..

having said that, i too wish i could set + train my mind to be thankful for all god's gifts. usually, while i am grateful, my actions or tots do not reflect that. i get into a whirpool of negative tots wishing this or that. sometimes, it is not easy to be in a state of bliss, peaceful mind....
sometimes it comes easy to do,
sometimes you struggle to get to that peace.
though i do pray everyday to have an inner peace, that prayer is often not granted!!!

the concept of 'que sera sera' is simply 'whatever will be will be'. if we do embrace to this notion,
does that mean we don't do anything??
do we just wait and let things fall into place?
do we not even try to change it?
do we just resign + let things happen?
do we not feel when things are not going the way we want it?
do we not fight before we settle for 'it's fated'?

When all is said and done, more is said than done - lou holtz

remember the series 'ally mcbeal'? she would have this 'pick-me-up' song by barry white. as for me, up to recently, my song is 'make it mine' by jason mraz.

Wake up everyone
How can you sleep at a time like this
Unless the dreamer is the real you

Listen to your voice
The one that tells you
To taste past the tip of your tongue
Leap in, the net will appear

I don't wanna wake before
The dream is over
I'm gonna make it mine

the tempo of this song is very upbeat, not so sure bout the lyrics though. the first time i heard this song was during the drive back from margaret river to perth... so thank you jeremy

last week i had an ad-hoc discussion with the trainees, listening to their views of the firm + what they had gained + their opinions of their fellowmates. then i asked what they thought about the boss a.k.a me. i was quite surprised with their responses coz they admire me + to some point idolized! talk about ego-booster! the fact that i do inspire them in a way makes me feel good coz god knows i am not inspiring at all most of the time + a screw-up sometimes!! so thank you people for thinking so highly...

'Happiness is a state of mind'
show me the way to there + i will migrate!

anyway my idea of bliss is a white sandy beach, sipping pina colada + just chilling!!

someday
somehow
maybe....

but not now coz i got so many 'important' things to do!

wa-ka wa-ka

2010-06-19T10:28:00.036+08:00

football [or soccer.. in american linggo] fever is here now a.k.a. world cup!!! [the olympics of soccer]. my friend says even the olympics is only 2 weeks, whereas world cup lasts about 1 month!!
waka waka means "this time for africa"

somehow this year, i am really into it. i'm actually the schedule + setting alarm for 'interesting' games..... which somehow sometimes turned out not interesting, in fact bore ringggg!

last night i watched 2 games :
german vs serbia - final score 0-1 [shocking right!!]
german even got a penalty goal but did not capitalized

england vs algeria - final score 0-0
prior to this, england vs usa 1-1 [again.. huh!! in the states, most americans don't even know world cup!.. they're more intense into world series @baseball]
england has all the top-notch players....... so not-up-to-standard!

while i bitch about it, i still do enjoy this game.... why? maybe because this game requires team effort + not easy to score + while you might have good players, you need a creative coach to steer the team.

the controversial ball by adidas named 'jabulani', means ‘to celebrate’ in the zulu language. comments from some [taken from wikipedia: adidas jabulani] :

Goal Keepers
Italian goalkeeper Gianluigi Buffon:
It is very sad that a competition so important as the world championship will be played with such an inadequate ball.

English goalkeeper David James:
The ball is dreadful. It's horrible, but it's horrible for everyone.

Australian goalkeeper Mark Schwarzer:
Sometimes the ball has a genuine flight and other times it has a mind of its own. Technology is not everything; scientists came up with the atom bomb, doesn't mean we should have invented it.

Spanish goalkeeper Iker Casillas:
It’s a little sad that in a competition as big as the World Cup to have such a poor ball.

Nigerian goalkeeper Vincent Enyeama:
The only thing is that some of us might be disgraced by that ball at the World Cup.

Chilean goalkeeper Claudio Bravo:
It is a special ball, they do this to make a goalkeeper's life complicated, so that more goals are scored. Time and time again they make a keeper's job more difficult.

Outfield Players
Brazilian striker Robinho:
For sure the guy who designed this ball never played football.

Argentine striker Lionel Messi stated:
The ball is very complicated for the goalkeepers and for us [strikers].

Paraguayan striker Roque Santa Cruz:
Everyone is complaining about the ball, but players like to complain about everything.

German striker Mario Gomez:
Once you have learned to make proper contact with the ball, you can make it travel very fast. It’s a case of catching it right.

Brazilian striker Luís Fabiano:
It’s like it doesn’t want to be kicked. You are going to kick it, and it moves out of the way. I think it’s supernatural; it’s very bad.

Danish defender Daniel Agger said:
It's frustrating...it makes us look like drunken sailors.

Coaches
England coach Fabio Capello:
I think it’s the worst ball we have played with at a World Cup.

Ivory Coast coach Sven-Göran Eriksson:
You can see in matches and in shooting practice in training that the ball swerves.

before 1998, i don't watch soccer [i'm still trying to get use to say 'football' instead of 'soccer' coz i associate 'football' with 'american football'] coz i tot it was quite boring coz it's just silly for 22 grown-ups to fight for 1 small stupid ball!!!

however, my died in 1998 + it was during the world cup. it was during the ramadhan month [if my memory serves me right] coz i would hear my dad 'roar' during sahur. so in 2002, i made an effort to watch some games, i don't know, maybe by doing so i felt somewhat connected to my dad...... from there, the interest came.

me + my dad were never close, i cannot remember cosy stories with my dad, we don't really see eye to eye, i don't think i lived up to his standards, i remember him being quite strict + non-negotiable ....
i am actually uncomfortable writing this [my relationship with my dad] but upon reading anas zubedy's 'quran + i', i think it's ok to tell coz this is real + it does not mean i don't love my dad.... it was just the way it was .... then.
only when i contracted lupus in 1996, our relationship improved.... so alhamdullillah!

songs that reminds me of my dad :

the living years-mike + the mechanics

You just can't get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defence

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
It's the bitterness that lasts

I wasn't there that morning
When my Father passed away
I didn't get to tell him
All the things I had to say

I just wish I could have told him in the living years

perfect- simple plan
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

someday somehow
who knows
god's willing
i will meet my dad again

god bless

to those fathers out there.........

when I'm gone

2010-06-07T20:51:00.021+08:00

If (when) I die,
I do hope people + loved ones would miss me
coz it feels good to be loved + missed....
at the beginning at least.

if it was a fiction movie,
I would be looking down + smile
coz it would be quite touching
coz you would know that you are being loved

but I hope nobody would missed me
too much or too long that they don't live
and that would definitely make me sad

so mourn me when I'm gone..... for a while,
then start living again
coz we only got one life to live......

Like Kris Allen's song:

Looking at the hands of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying

You never know a good thing until it's gone
You never see a crash until it's head on
All these people right when we're dead wrong,
You never know a good thing till it's gone

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share- Steve Jobs

someday
somehow
one fine day
I will die

my wish is if I am to be missed,
miss me now
coz I am here now + alive.....

last but not least
make me in your prayers + sedekah
al-fatihah ....................

n-a-d-i-a

2010-05-31T20:07:00.022+08:00

who?
what?
huh?

you wonder right....?
not anybody in this context. it's actually my initials :

my first name

my dad [ariffin]

my grandpa [daud]

my great grandpa [ismail]

my great-great grandpa [arshad]

after that i have no idea coz my late grandpa had no idea. to those who are royal bloods or in 'syed/syarifah' bloodline, they might be able to trace back their family trees. however, commoners like me are not that privileged to know who our ancestors are..... but it's okay coz why does it matter, right?

well at least i do know until my great2 grandpa.

there's no need for
someday
somehow
this time coz ther's just no need!

The longer I live, the more beautiful life becomes.-Frank Lloyd Wright

i believe this quote is actually true coz maybe i am getting ........... older ;-) and you do appreciate things that you did not give 2 hoots before..... so alhamdullillah
my fb status last year [which i took from a friend's email of someone's quote] :

"I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turning gray, and to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into grooves on my face. Some have never laughed, and some have died before their hair turn silver. I don't question myself too much,-May 7, 2009

whoever said what ------ ever

2010-05-27T14:46:00.037+08:00

today i posted tis on facebook [after all it does ask 'what's on your mind?']

Whoever said 'if u don't succeed, try + try again' ..... Total bull + a load of crapp!!

sometimes all that so-called feel good or inspirational or whatever quotes or sayings just ain't true..... piss me off!

28/5/10 : somehow today i'm not in a such pissing mood... so that's good :-)

saw this in fb

"Everything will be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not yet the end"

....yup, i'm a fan of this too.

tis lyrics kinda caught me. song called 'somebody' sang by 'depeeche mode'

When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
You'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact you'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
You will understand me

Silence is one of the hardest arguments to refute.- Josh Billings

so what's going on this month? my birthday for 1, celebrated very sombre with staff, which was quite a surprise coz usually it's a big extravagant planned event [after all i am the big boss ;-)]... however the cake was double layer + homemade by 2 staff. no complaints here, it's nice to have it simple once a while.... keyword is 'once a while'.

2nd being we hosted + lost the thomas cup... not surprising right? well, either china was too strong or we were not mentally strong. to think that lee chong wei is now no1 ranked in the world + lin dan only no2!

this is a face of a champion... lin dan!

we actually lost to japan at the beginning.... i know... you go 'what?' or 'huh?' i supposed this notion that we will win the cup is like a mirage... u can almost hold it but it turns out to be an illusion!

3rd- my nightmare of getting a phone call which you sometime imagining getting but you hope you never get ...that call! my fb status on 2/5/10 :

Got a call yesterday saying my mom had been admitted to ICU, that really shook my world! You just get numb coz you think of the worst. Alhamdullillah she's okay now.... Dr said if she had come in later, it might be too late. So yes it's a beautiful day !!

and my sister, heavily pregnant also gave birth to a baby girl in penang! alhamdullillah..

4th- we've been working on this particular project very very hard + just a couple of days ago found out we didn't get it....... yup, very sad :-( so once you do know that you're getting it, don't even bother trying or trying harder... doesn't work mates!
but once the dust is settled, i figure it's ok if it is meant to be [my fault too for hoping too much + banking on tis sole project without any plan b].... we did try + the rest is just fate. we'll bounce back, insyaallah....

this year, for the 1st time i am getting really worried about when the next project is coming in. i don't really know how we had made it through the last 16 year coz truth be told, i don't quite know how to lobby...so i now i am in alien territory!!
previously we've been very lucky that projects just came. we might not get the glamorous projects but we do get by... i know it seems weird that i have no clue on how to lobby + how to look for opportunities. to change the m-i-n-d-s-e-t that i am a 'salesman' will take some time but i will be one if i have too.

the ironic part is the reason i took tis line was because i tot i would deal with people-less + building-more... how wrong can i get! basically i am not a people person, i don't know how to have small chit chat or keep in touch with people [explains why i don't actually have that many friends... daa!] but there's no turning back now coz i got a lot of dependencies....... so let's start studying 'sales 101'.

someday
somehow
i will master this art of mingling
+ talk cock [another word i learn]
to people + hopefully
i will be an excellent 'salesman'
...........insyaallah!

note: this is my 50th entry... who would have tot i would religiously jot my tots every month [somewhat..] since 2006. the blog thingy was first introduced by my sis.

place marked- margaret river

2010-04-24T09:13:00.099+08:00

margaret river- about 3 hours drive from perth, a place for wine tasting mainly. went from 14- 16 april 2010. at first, i am thinking 'what the hell are we going to do in perth for 1 week?!!' turns out to be a very pleasant adventure.. with good company, any place is always fun. the weather varies tremendously... you could be thinking of wearing a sweater before you go out, by the time you actually get out, it turns sunny + hot...... bipolar!

the laidback town

a bit about margaret river, taken from wikipedia :

Margaret River is the foremost Geographical Indication wine region in the South West Australia Zone, with nearly 5,500 hectares under vine and over 138 wineries as at 2008. Margaret River wine region is made up predominately of boutique size wine producers; although winery operations range from the smallest crushing 3.5 tonne per year to the largest around 7000 tonne. The climate of Margaret River is more strongly maritime-influenced than any other major Australian region

signs to ponder
one that i did not capture 'who's the skipper?' keep popping at all the vineyards. this is supposed to be a reminder to those so that whoever taste or drink the wines do not overdo on the booze + drive!

old + new friends that made the whole trip fun ;-) ...... thank you

some nice products of margaret river... main products are wine + cheese

the vineyards that we visited.... all of them very scenic + serene + pleasant. quite ironic if you think about it coz drinking wine is a sin + the places are very peaceful...

the flowers of margaret river...

the trip to the beach....... spectacular, breathtaking!!! not even exaggerating.. merely a statement. the sky + sea so blue....

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh ...

the photos taken do not do justice to the actual scene. it was so lovely that we went again later to watch the sunset while picnicking.... but it was cold!!

the place that we stayed : forte [or something] duplex apt, had dishwasher, washer + dryer even! for breakfast we [i mean friend did... i just watched + ate] grill sausages, eggs, toast bread at the bbq pit [they say 'barbi' there].

mike brought his playstation where it can actually rate you voice for karaoke. on the last night, 'chef' jacky made seafood pasta + pizza, courtesy of me coz they were worried i was not having my protein coz a lot were non-halal food. so kudos to the chef!

at berry farm to eat the scones with cream + jam + jam testing... about 30 mins from where we stayed

i am thankful that i have friends who i could self-invite myself to their events + trips. what makes this trip an adventure was that i had 0-expectation + having host from the places that we went gave you an glimpse of their lifestyle or culture which no tour guide can ever give.

someday somehow

i hope more experiences like this coz it was capital .....f......u.....n !!!!

chicken soup of the soul [..or oxtail]

2010-02-18T14:36:00.022+08:00

last weekend i cooked oxtail soup, it has been awhile that kitchen has seen any serious cooking! it's not as if i have never cooked the soup before [previously it was just basic.. like putting in the 'bunjut' + oxtail + water + salt] but this time i got the recipe from my staff. they were kind enough to go buy all the ingredients [they even bought cooking oil for they assumed i don't cook at all!] + even do a write-up with illustration of 'how to'. many thanks to them... thank you. so the pictures here are the result of that. looks yummy right??? i think so too!

from wikipedia :

definition of chicken soup for the soul is a series of books, usually featuring a collection of short, inspirational stories and motivational essays.

my buddy died last month, 21 jan 2010 to be exact. i don't think i have ever lost anyone so close before. the closest i can think of is my grandpa who died in 1981. that was the year i took my major exam, so my mom did not tell meright after for fear that i could not take it. my dad died in 1998, i felt the lost, but i was never that close to my dad.

this buddy of mine, i had know for donkey years! but this last couple of years felt i was really close. the weird part was i never knew his death affected me quite bad... but it did. he was my 'tempat sandar' [place to lean ??], i mean it's not like i needed or miss him all the time, it's just that sometimes when you want to lean, it's not there. he's always there for me through my dark moments especially + i could expose all my weakness without fear.....

of late, we're always in touch, either i'm at his place or always calling calling or texting or going 'makan2'......... so now that's gone, so yes i do miss the presence...
you are in my prayers everyday.... thank you for being my friend.

so mates, whoever ever had or have a buddy, you should consider yourself lucky!!

i was ......

this was my entry on facebook the day after :

someone who u can call anytime without asking 'is it convinient to talk?', make judgement of u + still don't feel offended, can drop by anytime without feeling intruding, give consultation without having to pay, call u names + you don't get insulted, consider u his personal 911 for any emergency, be there for u whether you're weak or strong, happy or sad ...

well that someone is no more. farewell buddy- sloppy joe

all time favorite singer of him... never missed buying her albums, even buying a day late would be considered late!

my message to a friend who was close to him... who was also devastated when he heard the news :

on tues nite [19/1/10] at 11.30pm, harris called saying he was vomitting blood + slam[his housemate] had called the ambulance + he wanted to take a shower. Told him to cancel the ambulance coz i could send him + forget the shower.. daa!

by the time i arrived, told slam to bring him down [he's on level 7], but slam said he couldn't, so went up. there were lots of blood clots in kitchen + bedroom. at this time he was semi-conscious.

by the time the ambulance arrived was already about 12.20am 20/1/10. we followed the ambulance + waited at the emergency area until 2.30am. told the doctor we had to go back first + gave his sister's + my no. i also called his sister [kak nor] to inform that he was in the hospital. talked to the doctor + he said harris would be in for awhile.

so the same day i was in kl with a friend who wanted to visit harris [at this point i did not want to coz i tot i could go the next day], so we went. he looked extremely weak + but could still talk, didn't stay long coz the dr were very busy with him. even at this time, i never tot it was that serious coz he had been going to the hospital a few times + once they put in blood in him, he would be allright.. supposed his family tot the same, coz we were the 1st to visit him.

however at 9.30pm that night, i got a call from the sis + she was crying coz harris was already in critical stage. i felt numb, but this time i called a few friends to tell of his condition. by the time i arrived at the hospital, there were many people, crying + saying prayers. he was already unconscious + blood were coming out everywhere, from his nose, ears, neck etc. no matter how much blood was being put in, the body was rejecting. the dr mentioned that the chances were very slim ...but u know, sometimes u tend not to believe coz this is .... harris! anyways, went back at 2.30am [21/01/10] coz by then there were only 2 brothers left. the rest said that they would sleep first + later come back.

at 5.50am i got a call from hanif [the brother] saying that he's gone ...............................................................................
by 11.30am, he was safely put to rest.
may he rest in peace...... ameeen

so in a way, my chicken soup story was my buddy.... there was a time i felt 'what's the point' after his death, but now everyday i wake up, i thank god for still giving me the gift to be alive another day...... alhamdullillah!

Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift- regina ?

someday
somehow
someone you are close is going to die
so
praise, hug... or do whatever
to express that your love
before ...................................... it's too late

jokes aside

2010-02-06T18:45:00.035+08:00

blonde jokes :

Q. Why can’t a blonde dial 911?
A. She can't find the eleven

Why did the blonde stare at the orange juice carton? It said "concentrate" on it!

A blonde once shot an arrow into the air... but missed!

Did you hear about the blonde tap dancer? She fell in the sink!

How do you make a blonde laugh on a Wednesday? Tell her a joke on a Monday!

I offered a blonde a penny for her thoughts.... she gave me change!

Why did the blonde cross the road? I don't know. Neither did she!

pick-up lines :

Do you believe in love at first sight or do
I have to walk by you again?

I sure hope you are a library book, because I am checkin' you out!

Boy: Do you have fever?
Girl: No, why?
Boy: Cause you look hot!!!!!

Guy: Haven’t I seen you someplace before?
Girl: Yes, that’s why I don’t go there anymore.

Guy: Miss, do have a bandaid?
Girl: Yes, why?
Guy: Because I scraped my knees when I fell for you!

Guy: I hope I don't get a cake on my birthday.
Girl: Why?
Guy: Because I wouldn't be able to blow the candles out.
Girl: Why?
Guy: Because you just took my breath away!

fish jokes :

Two gold fish are in a tank one says to the other
"Do you know how to drive this thing?"

Q. What do you call a fish with no eye?
A. A fsh

What did the fish say when he ran into the wall?
Dam!!

moo jokes :

Q: What do you get from a pampered cow?
A: Spoiled milk.

Q: What do you call a cow without feet?
A: Ground beef

food jokes :

Q: If you have 4 apples and 3 oranges in one hand,
and 3 apples and 4 oranges in the other, what do you have?
A: Very large hands!!

Why did the potato blush?
Because it saw the salad dressing

Q: What did one strawberry say to another strawberry?
A: If you weren't so fresh, we wouldn't be in this jam!!

general jokes :

Q: What do you call a laughing motorcycle?
A: A Yamahahaha

Q. Did you hear the Energizer Bunny Was Arrested?
R. Charged With Battery

A wise man once said ...... go ask a woman

Q.Why was 6 affraid of 7?
A.Because 7,8,9

What's the difference between ignorance and indifference?
I don't know and I don't care!

Q: What does a stamp say to an envelope?
A: Stick with me and we'll go places.

Q:What goes up but never comes down?
A:Your age

Why is a psychiatrist like a squirrel?
Because they are both surrounded by nuts.

A: One.
Q: How many psychics does it take to change a lightbulb?

Everyone has a photographic memory. Some people are just out of film.

Marriage is like a railroad sign… first you stop, then you look, and then you listen.

Q: Why did the turkey cross the road?
A: To prove it wasn't chicken.

He is not quiet; he is conversational minimalist.

Children: You spend the first 2 years of their life teaching them to walk and talk. Then you spend the next 16 years telling them to sit down and shut-up.

The early bird might get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

Better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than to speak and remove all doubt.

Whenever I fill out an application, in the part that says "If an emergency, notify:" I put "DOCTOR". What's my mother going to do?

Why do Americans choose from just two people to run for president and 50 for Miss America?

Q. I married Miss Right.
A. I just didn’t know her first name was “Always”.

They call our language the mother tongue because the father seldom gets to speak.

It was love at first sight. Then I took a second look !!

"I gotta 'A' in spelling."
"You dope! There isn't any 'A' in spelling."

most jokes from onelinez.com, blonde-joke.com

extracted from university of maryland medical center's website :

Laughter, along with an active sense of humor, may help protect you against a heart attack, according to a recent study by cardiologists at the University of Maryland Medical Center in Baltimore. The study, which is the first to indicate that laughter may help prevent heart disease, found that people with heart disease were 40 percent less likely to laugh in a variety of situations compared to people of the same age without heart disease.

they say that laughter is the best medicine
maybe there is some truth to this

a lot of times in life [especially if you are an adult],
we tend to be a bit serious,
so maybe we need to take a break and

don't care too much about how much money to save
don't think too much of the political haywire that's going on
don't bother too much about the economy +
how it would affect
don't ponder too much on how the after life is going to be like
so let's laugh a little or a lot
to be alive + healhty is already something to smile + thankful about

coz
someday
somehow
those worry days would soon come creeping in again!!!

to the chinese, this year is the year of the tiger....
so lets roarrrrrrrrrr!!!!

dream a dream

2010-02-04T10:22:00.021+08:00

extracted from malaysian insider's article by zaidel b [4/02/10]

How Dreams Die
They dream of doing something great, building something big, experiencing something good or producing something beautiful. But as they grow older some of them may come to the conclusion that they are not smart or talented enough; pay was too low or the job market was not that good for that industry and pressure from parents or society.

So now dreams are no longer about being someone important, making something great, or experiencing exciting things. Dreams are now merely focussed on getting promoted to becoming an assistant manager before 30; getting 3 months bonus by the end of the year; achieving this month’s sales target, looking cool at Zouk this weekend, buying a new LV bag, going home by 5.30; gathering enough money to get married next year or simply getting a set of new wheels for the car.

And before you know it, that eight year old who once dreamed of becoming an astronaut now sits in a cubicle, facing a computer screen, clicking the mouse and reading an online news portal cursing at some Doctor who gets into space on a Russian rocket.

And that is how folks, most dreams die. A slow and quiet death. Written on its tombstone is the excuses for its death.

why did i post that you say?
well, it seems of late, i don't have anymore dreams or targets to aim.... thus, aimless! when i was small, i wanted to be an architect [thats all i wanted to be] coz i tot i would only deal with buildings and not people.... how wrong was i!

things that i have to do + done :

to get a degree in architecture : check
to get my professional license to be an architect : check
to own my own firm by age 30 : check
to own my own shoplot by 40 : check
now............................. nothing to check coz no more aim... sigh!

to go through life aimlessly is not so rewarding coz you do feel that you are wasting your time + the whole notion of :
living life to the fullest
live like you're dying
today may be your last day
does not work!

though i do sometimes crack by brains to find some kind of target, well it's not happening... just yet. i religiously believe that if one were to do something, it has to be with passion to be worthwhile... if not what is the point.

anyways this notion of 1malaysia is also a dream.. to me. until now i don't get what it means, but everywhere i see the slogans [so much taxpayers money are spend on this advertisement] + nowadays the '1' is so catchy that everybody whose anybody wants to use it in their project names!

i maybe naive but i would like to think that 1 means we are unified as a country, no need to segregate the races, malays are not the superior race + they too originated elsewhere before settling here + scholarships are based on merit [are all chinese + indians rich??].

some songs [that i can think of] do encompass the notion of '1'

john lennon- imagine :
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

dire straits- brothers in arm :
There's so many different worlds
So many different suns
And we have just one world
But we live in different ones

Now the sun's gone to hell
And the moon's riding high
Let me bid you farewell
Every man has to die
But it's written in the starlight
And every line on your palm
We're fools to make war
On our brothers in arms

as we get older, i think that we get jaded + believe that there is no point to dream if it's not going to happen.... so we drift + accept things the way they are + not bothered to fight for anything coz..... what's the point!

yup... it's sad... so what do we do mates?????!!!

someday somehow
i do hope i have dreams again

till then,
good night
and yes,
sweet dreams!

what about me

2010-01-03T01:07:00.016+08:00

one of the songs that impacted me when i was in my early twenties was this song that i did not know the title, nor do i know the singer's name! i tot that song somewhat captures my tots [well i never knew the whole lyrics] especially 'what about me!!!'. tis was the age that my dad still treated me like a child, whereas i felt like an adult..... so u could imagine that we did not really get on well with each other. so when i hear this particular song, i would scream at the chorus 'what about me!' those years, there was no internet yet.

recently i have been trying to track tis song, but came up empty unti i was browsing to the 80s music + i saw the title, then checked youtube to hear the song. dangggggg!!! it was the song!!!!! + managed to get the lyrics. i am so happy being able to live in the age of the internet! the group 'moving pictures' was a band from aussie, think it was a one-hit-wonder. too bad, but at least they sang this song! that's good enough for me.

What About Me? - Moving Pictures

Well there's a little boy waiting at the counter of the corner shop
He's been waiting down there, waiting half the day,
They never ever see him from the top
He gets pushed around, knocked to the ground,
He gets to his feet and he says...

What about me? It isn't fair
I've had enough, now I want my share
Can't you see, I wanna live
But you just take more than you give

Well, there's a pretty girl serving at the counter of the corner shop
She's been waiting back there, waiting for a dream,
Her dreams walk in and out, they never stop
Well, she's not too proud, to cry out loud
She runs to the street and she screams...

"What about me?"

Take a step back and see the little people
They might be young, but they're the ones that make the big people big
So listen as they whisper:
"What about me?"

And now I'm standing on the corner, all the world's gone home
Nobody's changed, nobody's been saved
And I'm feeling cold and alone
I guess I'm lucky, I smile a lot
But sometimes I wish for more than I've got...

another song was 'the whole of the moon' by the waterboys. tis song, when i was first introduced was during my uni days. i wasn't getting good grades, always felt i was somewhat inferior, didn't get through anything easily.... so tis song was a reminder that a lot of us were going through that or why would anyone be inspired to write tis!

the sound mixing was good too, but the best was to listen at my friend's house who had a b&o speakers! the speakers did not look like speakers, they looked like screen! then with harmon kardon pre-amp + amp, dangggggg!!!! one could just be there and let the whole world pass you by, + just listen to some serious music!

The Whole of the Moon- The Waterboys

I pictured a rainbow
you held it in your hands
I had flashes
but you saw the plan
I wandered out in the world for years
while you just stayed in your room
I saw the crescent
you saw the whole of the moon

You were there at the turnstiles
with the wind at your heels
You stretched for the stars
and you know how it feels
To reach too high
too far
Too soon
you saw the whole of the moon

I was grounded
while you filled the skies
I was dumbfounded by truth
you cut through lies
I saw the rain-dirty valley
you saw Brigadoon
I saw the crescent
you saw the whole of the moon

I spoke about wings
you just flew
I wondered, I guessed, and I tried
you just knew
I sighed
but you swooned
I saw the crescent
you saw the whole of the moon
The whole of the moon!

With a torch in your pocket
and the wind at your heels
You climbed on the ladder
and you know how it feels
To get too high
too far
Too soon
you saw the whole of the moon

Unicorns and cannonballs,
palaces and piers,
Trumpets, towers, and tenements,
wide oceans full of tears,
Flags, rags, ferry boats,
scimitars and scarves,
Every precious dream and vision
underneath the stars

You climbed on the ladder
with the wind in your sails
You came like a comet
blazing your trail
Too high
too far
Too soon
you saw the whole of the moon

anyway, that was then. so do i still feel short-changed? well sometimes, but nowadays i feel thankful for all the blessings... alhamdullillah!

so people
if you do feel that this world is treating you bad,
i hope

someday
somehow

your life will turn around
and life in this world as we know it
won't be so bad

'Don't dwell on the past, you can't change it.
Forget the present, I didn't get you one'

-taken from purpearlya.blogspot.com, whoever you are [edited a bit]

have a memorable new year this year!!!

food for thought

2009-12-08T13:39:00.019+08:00

sometimes when you watch the afc [asian food channel] + you see them display these scrumptious mouth watering cruisine, then they go and taste these damn food + then they go 'mmmmmmmmm..... soooooo goooood!' and being cynical, my tots would say 'really? just an act probably' and of course sometimes you do wish that you do go and experience this arty-farty food presentation coz one is curious whether it does as good as it looks

well i was lucky to sample this in this fine dining restaurant named 'ibunda', which is located in jalan bukit bintang, somewhat right across prince medical center [which looked more like a 5-star office block than a hospital. made me thinking: if i ever get not so sick (if you're really sick, you don't care where you are coz you're really really sick), i would love to check-in there + see the klcc from your bed while the nurse pokes needles in you!]

do check it out coz it's an experience that you do want to experience, coz you never experience this when it comes to malay food
ibunda fine dining
just so you know- no, i do not any commission for recommending it to anyone. but it is a friend's friend that has a share in it

bubur pulut hitam....... wonderful!

bubur nangka [you go 'huh?']...... really nice

rice [you go 'that small a serving???'].
..... yup my tots too initially

mixture of chicken, duck, lamb, beef + various sambal

is it a doughnut...... nope! of course some of you guys are clever enough to know this is actually cappuccino! yup, i never saw one served like this before! this was at klcc convention center @2nd/3rd floor. the effort people put to make it like an art, when within seconds, the patterns would dissapear!

i am thankful that i do get to experience all these coz some people do take food to another level + really thinking food as a presentation

i do think about food but not in a creative sense
someday somehow
maybe i would see it in a different perspective... but not now
food for tot????!

poetry haze

2009-11-28T10:20:00.037+08:00

If I lay here
If I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
but not enough

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

my 1st attempt to write a poem.... nah! taken from the song 'chasing cars' by snow patrol. i'm inspired to write a poem coz i saw my sis's blog + she writes her heart in a poem....... let's try again :

i wish that i could play the guitar
so that i could strum 'romeo + juliet' by dire straits
but i can't so i surrender
i wish i ................ arrrggggghhhhhh! forget about it!

30-11-09
anyways, many things i wish for
some i get, some i don't
some bothers me if i don't get,
some bothers me a lot,
so is this childish behavior?

'Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over,
And it seems as though the writings on the wall'
-rise + fall: craig davis

they say bad things happen for a reason
but no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
-breakeven: the script

There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes, and it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows
-bizzare love triangle: new order

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
-hate me: blue october

like b.e.p. says
'i can't go any further than this
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh meet me halfway'

i suppose like j.t sings
'what goes around comes around'

if to cut the whole sentence short: karma!

so what am i babbling about?
they say you should always feel lucky
and thankful for all the things that god had given
and for every turn of events, there is a reason
and in the long run, it's good for you

mmmmmmmm...........
i say yah, sometimes but sometimes that's just a load of crap!!

anyway, supposed i am in a
pissing + hazy + whatever
mood now coz it's not that easy to be
strong or tough or
whatever word that oprah uses....
nevertheless, i do hope
someday
somehow
i do be very strong and no one can touch me
[like m.c. hammer's song] or ever get close

however
if ever i do get to achieve that
i would be catergorized as a
zombie or robot
coz by then
i will no longer

f e e l

songs at this time :
chasing cars -snow patrol
come home -one republic

flora of bamboo river

2009-11-16T11:23:00.026+08:00

nov 09- a trip to sungai buloh colossal flora farm[behind the 'kusta' + hospital sg buloh]... this could [or is] be a tourist spot but it's got no official name, but i supposed it quite well known to the locals

a breath of fresh air ..................aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
looking at these lovely plants, made me feel like i actually went on an overseas vacation! complete serenity + fresh air........ mmmmmmmmmm.......

if you google 'flowers meanings', there are more than 1.7 million tems related to this topic!

Taken from 800florals.com

Meaning of Flowers
As every flower lover knows, flowers have a language of their own. Every sentiment is expressed in one form or another by these delicate blooms. Of course, even the experts disagree on the "true meaning" of many flowers and most have different meanings to different people. So, while all flowers convey thoughtfulness and love, here are some of the more traditional flower meanings, according to one source. See, if you agree. And, remember, a gift of flowers for a special someone will always create its own personal meaning, too.

from floweradvisor.com

While it's certainly true that all flowers can express a multitude of sentiments, it is important to realize that different blooms represent varying meanings and emotions – be it sympathy, respect, love, innocence or passion.

Not sure which flowers say it best? Use this as a guide:

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word (the best flowers to apologise):
Geraniums – stupidity, folly
Yellow Gerberas – I'll try harder to win your love
Orange Gerberas – You are the sunshine of my life

Don't Worry, Be Happy (the best flowers to brighten someone's day):
Freesias - thoughtfulness
Orange Roses – feelings of enthusiasm, fascination
Sunflowers – adoration, following the sun
Yellow Tulips – there's sunshine in your smile

Thank You For Being a Friend (the best flowers to say thank you):
Pink Roses – gratitude, admiration, appreciation, friendship, thankfulness
Peach Roses – gratitude, appreciation, admiration
Yellow Roses – joy, friendship

Be My Baby (the best flowers to express new love):
Red Tulips – declaration of love, believe me.
White Roses – spiritual love, happy love
Lavender Roses – love at first sight, enchantment

I Will Remember You (the best flowers to express sympathy/condolences):
Forget-Me-Nots – memories, remembrance
Crimson Roses – mourning
Pink Roses – sympathy
White Roses – reverence
Lily of the Valley – humility, new life
Chrysanthemums – passing of a life

An Apple A Day (the best flowers to express Get Well wishes):
Sunflowers – sunshine, following the sun
Orange Gerberas – you are the sunshine of my life
Freesias – thoughtfulness

Celebrate Good Times (the best flowers to say Congratulations):
Birds Of Paradise – magnificence
Lilies – magnificent beauty, wealth, pride, majestic
Sunflowers – adoration
Yellow & Red Roses - congratulations

I Will Always Love You (the best flowers to express true love):
Yellow & Orange Roses – passionate thoughts
Thornless Roses – love at first sight
Red Roses – love, passion, respect, courage, I love you
Orange Lilies – flame, I burn for you

flowers somehow do get to my senses. i do make a point to buy fresh flowers every forthnight, it does feel good when you come back + have the flowers greet you.

anyway i did buy flower plants that supposedly could live indoor....
i do hope
someday somehow
they would live + bloom, coz i sure don't have green fingers!

apple of my eye

2009-11-08T11:12:00.020+08:00

taken from 'gurbaksh chahal blog'

This is one of my favorite speeches of all times and was given by Steve Jobs at Stanford’s 2005 graduation ceremony. His philosophy of life and business is very similar to what I also believe in. That’s why, he’s truly a rock star and huge mentor to our industry. Hopefully, one day I also have the chance to share a similar message in a similar ceremony. Enjoy!

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That’s it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: “We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?” They said: “Of course.” My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents’ savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn’t see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn’t interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn’t all romantic. I didn’t have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends’ rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn’t have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can’t capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again,
you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future.
You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn’t know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn’t see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple’s current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I’m pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn’t been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work.
And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle.
As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself:
“If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.
Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor’s code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you’d have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I’m fine now.

This was the closest I’ve been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent.
It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960’s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.” It was their farewell message as they signed off.
Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.
And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

i do not own a mac or an i-phone, but this guy's story is truly amazing. i hope that i too
someday somehow
do touch other people with my story... .....or maybe not!

side track - i love the lyrics of this song, no idea who sings it :

" don't tell me if i'm dying, i don't want to know,
if i can't see the sun, then maybe i should go"

places marked- istanbul

2009-10-15T11:28:00.032+08:00

oct2009-triptoİstanbul
Istanbul (Turkish: İstanbul, historically also known as Byzantium and Constantinople; see names of Istanbul) is the largest city in Turkey and fifth largest city proper in the world with a population of 12.6 million.
It is located on the Bosphorus Strait and encompasses the natural harbour known as the Golden Horn, in the northwest of the country. It extends both on the European (Thrace) and on the Asian (Anatolia) sides of the Bosphorus, and is thereby the only metropolis in the world that is situated on two continents- wikipedea

streets

of

istanbul

every corner you go is a potential photo snap!

best looking vespa ever!!!

shopping haven : grand bazaar

colorful handmade potteries

vibrant colored painted plates

A nazar or evil eye stone (Turkish: nazar boncuğu ) is an amulet that is meant to protect against the evil eye- wikipedea

loads + loads of necklaces, bracelets etc

lots of potential souveniers to buy!

street of istikal cadesi

bookstore that you only imagine through storybook

a church that had been converted into a performance center

supposedly istanbul is 99% muslim!

open market behind sultanahmet mosque

lots of spices, dried stuff that you never saw before!

even at night, very alive

beyoulu public garden

turkish delights!

apple tea- everywhere... and everyones consuming it! believed to be an aphrodisiac!the word “aphrodisiac” comes from the greek goddess of sensuality, love and beauty:aphrodite.

what the ..........!

2009-09-25T21:03:00.029+08:00

Believe it !!
Sept 24 2009 JAKARTA (AFP) – An Indonesian woman has given birth to an 8.7-kilogramme (19.2-pound) baby boy, the heaviest newborn ever recorded in the country, a doctor said Wednesday. The baby, who is still unnamed and is 62 centimetres (24.4 inches) long, was born by caesarean section Monday at a public hospital in North Sumatra province.
"This heavy baby made the surgery really tough, especially the process of taking him out of his mum's womb. His legs were so big," the gynaecologist said. "He's got strong appetite, every minute, it's almost non-stop feeding," he said. "This baby boy is extraordinary, the way he's crying is not like a usual baby. It's really loud." The boy's massive size was likely the result of his mother, Ani, 41, having diabetes, Sitanggang said.

phew!!!! one hell of a birth!!!

taken from the blog 'zorro unmasked a.k.a bernard khoo. some comments on this issue [23 sep 2009]: total comments= 31

Anonymous said... Selangor state should offer khir RM5million (above premium, way way above premium), then turn his home to an orphanage.

Anonymous said... Wow! Which Sultan owns this palace? kekekeke...! This palace is only RM 3.o million? The I offer RM 4.0 million to buy!

Anonymous said... Lokk at the security fences....3 layers of fences in front. Must have a lot of valuables to protect.

que sera sera said... hello.... this is definitely not x-mb's house a.k.a palace. Still a doctor though, but i do believe that it is not through politics, hard-earn cash

Yew Sik Kow said... Not as big as that Tiong fella living near the Mines. Go check Dr. M's neighbour. This will look like a pondok in comparison.

Anonymous said... Ala small fish want to show off only...many of ex-leaders got much bigger mansions,overseas retreats mansions,jets,yatch,horses,super cars and also sexy girlfriends.He got or not?He dont have,so dont show offlah

Anonymous said... heaven on earth.....will surely land them into hell....why?. In the process of achieving the palaces, they surely stepped on other's head, neck, stomach, hands, legs.....and yes, prick!
umno, LU SENDIRI PIKIRLAH!....OR as Nik Aziz says.....UMNO, PERGI JAHANAMLAH!....(dalam Neraka Jahanam!)

for the record: the top photo is not k.toyo's mansion.... definitely 'fitnah'! i know for a fact that it's actually my relative's [see my post : que sera sera] + trust me, he worked his butt off to get where he is now

this is the real mansion of the ex-mb, which is just down the road @section 7 too

sometimes it's just sad that people don't check the facts + just post false info that is just not right when a lot of people visit your blog + believe whatever [crap] you write! the other sad part is people just want to believe whatever is written even when there are comments made disputing this.... so conclusion is people just love sensational news, and usually these are the news that could be detrimental...

liar liar pants on fire

someday somehow
i hope that those who writes these inaccurate info/news + those who made comments blindly get what's coming for them, though i doubt it....
so just live with it loh!

inperfectly perfect

2009-09-21T20:28:00.021+08:00

today i was listening to this interesting true story on the radio :

a girl called talking about 'aidilfitri'. she was born with polio and until 11 years old was not able to wear shoes because of the defects of her legs. so every year, she would get envious of her siblings coz they would get new shoes for 'raya'. so when she was 12, her legs were amputated.... [at this point, i was thinking that would be a sad moment] and she felt very very happy [i go..huh???] coz she then got artificial legs + therefore could wear new shoes for the first time!
... this is a good time to pause....

she went on saying this year is also her happiest year because she'll be getting her new car [customized to her needs of course] + eventhough she is still single, she believes that her family is her husband + her family because they are always supportive + she is thankful for this life

the other day, while driving through the busy streets of kl, i saw a girl crossing the road with a friend. she did not looked like a midget, but she was really really short [..really]. turns out she was walking on her knees! her legs were somewhat shortened + could not really wear shoes so she wore modified slippers...
..... again, time to pause .......

imagine, she cannot go anywhere alone. well at least crossing the road alone is a no-no coz it is really really dangerous coz drivers are not able to detect her. things that we take for granted such as taking money from the atm machine, queueing at banks [coz the counter is so higher than her height] and a whole lot of other things that to us is no big deal + nothing to be thankful about

in this selfish world, we are always complaining on how we wish we had a better body, flatter tummy, even with 6-packs, etc and yet we are perfect as compared to some of the unpriviledged ones. maybe sometimes we need to have reminders to remind us so that we are always thankful + feel special eventhough life is not perfect

my relative recently got his heart broken coz the other side's family decided he wasn't good enough for the daughter + preferred a 'better' suitor who is a 'hafiz' [someone who can memorize the quran].
well who can beat that right???
i do hope he'll get through and who knows one day find the one, insya-allah

interesting article found while surfing :

heartbroken leave introduced in japan
the gist of the content- basically a company in japan allows the staff to take leave due to hearts being broken in order to somewhat heal the wound [technically a few days is never enough] so that when they come back to work, they are more sound.
the weird part is not all can take maternity leave, but heartbroken leave is automatic!
the interesting part is the older you are [when you get your heart break], the longer leave you are entitled because the company thinks it is easier for the younger staff to heal + find another.

well what you say to this... even in a somewhat robotic country in japan, they do think that the heart is a delicate anatomy!
i wonder if in countries like france [city of paris] do they have such leave????

so people, if you believe
someday
somehow
that perfect life that you seek so bad to come will come,
you will be sorely dissapointed
coz it ain't coming!
live with it....

enjoy this life mates

if you see kay

2009-08-26T13:06:00.062+08:00

songs at this time :

mati hidup kembali- butterfingers
mirage- pesawat
radio- imran ajmain
entah- afgan
knock you down- keri hilson
the man who can't be moved- the script

speaking of the script, there is 1 song titled 'if you see kay', and when you say it, it sounds like 'f. u. c. k'.... please excuse my language, well i don't know if it's intentional!

anyway that's my sentiment about the case of this girl, kartina or something, who will be caned because she was caught drinking [liquor or something] in a hotel in Pahang.....

i mean you go like 'huh?!#' what is the goddamn big deal here!!!! I know drinking is harammmm, but come onnnn.... is it an isolated case? i don't think so, i can bet there are SOOO many out there who are doing that! oops.. betting is also haram! the ironic part is that this happened in the only state in malaysia that legalises gambling! ... in genting. and why is the husband not getting the cane too? he was there too doing the same act!!

extracted from malaysian insider :

SUNGAI SIPUT, Aug 25 - Kartika Sari Dewi Shukarno remained firm with her decision to accept punishment meted out to her by the Pahang Syariah High Court although Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak had urged her to appeal against the decision.
The 32-year-old part-time model had been fined RM5,000 and ordered to be given six strokes of rotan on July 20, by the Syariah High Court after she pleaded guilty to drinking beer at a hotel lounge in Cherating last year.
“Kartika should appeal instead of being too quick in seeking punishment. There is still an avenue for her to appeal,” Najib had told reporters after chairing the National Financial Council meeting at the Finance Ministry in Putrajaya today.
Kartika, a mother of two, however, said she would await whatever decision made by the Pahang Religious Department (JAIP) after the department had deferred her punishment due to the fasting month.

Taken from malaysian insider :beza pas + umno/ zaid ibrahim

Hassan Ali, Exco Selangor, mengeluarkan kenyataan pada hari membuang undi di Permatang Pasir bahawa orang-orang Islam yang didapati minum beer atau arak akan ditangkap oleh pegawai-pegawai Majlis dan Jabatan Agama yang akan diberi kuasa. Apa niat sebenar beliau? Nampak nya begitu yakin sekali ketua PAS ini dengan kekuatan mereka sekarang hinggakan sanggup mengambil risiko ini.
Saya kata risiko kerana tidak cukup dengan itu, Hassan Ali juga akan menangkap orang Islam yang berkerja di tempat minumam itu dijual atau ada kaitan secara langsung dengan penjualan itu. Mengikut laporan berita beliau menyatakan bahawa orang Islam yang membuat, menjual, menawarkan untuk jualan, menyimpan atau membeli arak pula, jika sabit kesalahan boleh didenda sehingga RM5,000 atau penjara maksimum tiga tahun atau kedua-dua sekali.

Ketua Pemuda PAS pun tak kurang hebatnya kerana mendesak kerajaan supaya membatalkan konsert kumpulan pop Michael Learns To Rock yang akan diadakan di Genting tidak lama lagi. Saya tak faham apa tujuan bantahan itu dibuat. Saya juga tak pasti sama ada puluhan ribu umat Islam akan ke Genting, tempat perjudian antarabangsa yang diluluskan oleh kerajaan, untuk menonton konsert itu. Lagipun, kalau konsert itu tidak dibenarkan sekali pun, orang Islam yang berminat masih boleh menonton DVD kumpulan itu setiap hari. Kalau pun tak ada DVD pun, masih boleh download dari internet atau mendengar lagu-lagu kumpulan itu di radio dan TV. Jadi apa hasil dari perbuatan mengharamkan konsert itu?

At this rate, everything is a no-no!

i do hope that pas will never ever rule this country of mine! damn straight i am pissed!

i do feel that pas is getting corky, they think that because they garnered a lot of votes, they think they are popular + their ideas are well received by all, especially the muslims.... well think again! personally i dont like their image because i 'feel' belittle by them, with their image of 'hollier than thou'... or is it just me

anyway, now is the month of ramadhan.... i should be having good thoughts + doing good deeds, instead of getting pissed + all negative! after all in this holy month, all the devils + satan are being chained somewhere far far away.
okay lets think good tots....mmmmmm..... mmmmmm..... mmmmmm.... my mind's a blank on that!!

i do not have the same ambition like last year, to qatam the quran within the ramadhan, coz i've been there + done that! i don't know if i can maintain my terawih record [last year i only skipped 2 or 3 days], but i have not missed yet, though it's only been 5 days or so! 2 people that i know are now doing their umrah for a whole month!

28-08-09 : watched whi [wanita hari ini] on tv3, yes did not go to work. this ustaz [forgot his name] said that this doa is not for just 'doa makan', which we are always associating with food only. seeing the meaning, i could understand why :

'Allaahumma baarik lanaa fiimaa razaqtanaa wa qinna'adzaabannar.
Ya Allah, berkahilah rizqi yang Engkau rizqikan kepada kami, dan peliharalah kami dari siksa neraka.'

talking about ramadhan + food, these are some of my favorite food for 'berbuka' :
murtabak, karipap sardin
laksa, seri muka
air tebu, apam balik
cendol

29-08-09 : stupid/ dumbass headline news : malaysian insider

SHAH ALAM, Aug 29 -Yesterday, dozens of Malay-Muslims claiming to be local residents marched to the state secretariat and threatened bloodshed if the state government went ahead with plans to allow the construction of a Hindu temple in what they claimed was inhabited mainly by Muslims.
They left a cow's head in front of the state secretariat in an act seen as highly provocative because Hindus consider the animal sacred.

again, another 'if you see kay'! what is going on people!!!????### isn't this the month of ramadhan??? is this under the name of islam?? are we not supposed to be tolerant??? why must some dumb-asses smear their own religion???

Surah al-An'am ayat 108, Allah s.w.t. berfirman yang bermaksud: "Janganlah kamu mencela atau memaki hamun sembahan mereka selain Allah, nanti mereka juga akan memaki hamun Tuhan kamu kerana marah tanpa sebarang ilmu pengetahuan".

credit to wan fatimah kamilah [whoever you are] that wrote a comment on facebook @anwar's note

i hope that

someday
somehow

these over-the-board assh***s will be punished severely. these are selfish, arrogant, corky muslims who should be ashamed to parade their acts, yet they are proud + supposedly 'menegakkan' god-knows-what!!!

from the cow's perspective.....

b-u-l-l-s-h-i-t!!!!